Tuesday, June 30, 2009
My rascal partner in school .Ha ha I can do all the crappy shit with her cus we're the same age & I miss u !I hopeur doing fine there :)) Done by :Juggy Ju!! He s thaAa man!"Hi ana. I miss you! Hehe k tu je aku nak cakap. Ha ha"Sender:Ziella+65tetetetet07Sent:09:45:15pm25-Jun-2009 Cute right ?& Kin's chatting with me.:)) If there's another britnehh used-to-be & the next door blondie hottie i wish to be is this girl right here .Lepak huh she ?I like her hair & her face & her hot hot body .Well yeah ,ms pixie here ,I like her alot .She's very ruggard yet a sweetie.
Remember jess's GEEKS PARTY ?It was hellava night .I wanna go to that kinda party again :))I miss tat kinda wild night.\ This is my friend ,Maisarah :))I hate the geeky specs im wearing.Part of my starbucks familia :))They're great generous genuine peoples .Ha ha stupid asses.& remember sheesha & when I just cut my hair ?Ha hahha .They are my sec sch mates.Irritating like shit but still alway put a smile on my face.
Lastly ,I miss my other half .The whole of them .I miss that family which I use to hangout alot with eating breakfast w them on sunday mornings & getting our power naps together before going out .I miss I miss /Especially that littlegirl & her grandma :(My day have been ummm ,mundane .But work was kinda fun though .Ju ,thanks ju ,thanks alot thanks thanks :)Other than that ,payday's brought forward to the 3rd :))Payday reminds meof struddle :(Next :I'm very happy .My mum cook today & Im very happy .So happy .Very veryhappy ,I must eat !hehe .Chicken curry with soft potatoes ,I like :):):):):) Goodnight errbody!Labels: fishy its okehh |
Monday, June 29, 2009
Muka belum mandi mesti comel. GOOD MORNING SAYANG :) Just came back from simpang supper :))no red ruby :((I got myself a big besa prawn & lotsa veggies.Tasted so blend ,like orang saket's dish. Now I feel sleepy .Its because of the kueh.Yay me happy .Mummy give me one roti boyan :)) 6.01am !must wake fish up .ha ha .Everyone start schooling cept for meh.Labels: carrot juice for my monday morning |
Sunday, June 28, 2009
why is everyone not updating their blogs huh .haiyak .Today's off day! I was suppost to go out with some people but like ,i cancel it & went with feroz & friends .So I bought some food for fishy first since she only had buttery croissant =,= & send it to her workplace .Chey padahal kerja same tempat .Tetapi.... So sad ,fishy was not feeling well & cant finished her food ,even her favourite ,fried chicken. I chilled there & when off only after midnight =,= we went out & eat the famous Tau Huay(?) & the Char Kuay .Sedap very best :))I like .Meet some friends & went of to esplanade. Ya I know ,esplanade sia like ,i seem to not like that place ah don't knw y .I can count with one hand how many times I've been to that place this year. Ha ha I've got myself 2 car escort .Lepak or what so like when we finally reach my house ,everyone went out from both cars ,like wanna go gang fight .ha ha ha ha thats my story. Actually im wasting my time while watching manja lara to kill time cus I don't wanna sleep since I have work at 7am later on .Like an hr more to go ,so ya . Haiz ,i miss u ah. |
Saturday, June 27, 2009
SKINNY. I miss sneaking out of my room right after u went to work at 7am in themorning to go check out ur cookings for the family today.Usually ,i ll wash up & eat straight away cus I can't resist then go back to bed.But now ,since u rent that stall & quit ur previous job,u've been neglecting ur duty to provide sufficient food for the family ,or 4 this case itsneglecting me ?I can like ,not taste rice for as long as 3 days .Because everytime u comeback from work ,i'll be rushing off to work .& if u bring the leftoversfrom ur stall ,it ll be like ,sigh .Its been so long since I saw rice insidethe rice cooker .My stomach is making noises most of the time now.mama ,ur littlegirl is getting skinny .Please takecare of her.enta ..macam pilih kasih gitu .It have alway been like this right ?Im alwaythe least amg them .I learn to deal w it throughout my 18yrs of living .justsometimes ,it gets into me ,like right now. Since I used to have an angel who makes sure I have something to eat everyday & make sure im not hungry ,its been hard ,cus that angel flew away & I have no one toreally complain & whine to .So I havta takecare of myself & I didn't know finding food is that tough ,especially when ure left with 15cents. annana's sleepy.for the first time.at 5.02am.Ugh ,make up still on. |
Friday, June 26, 2009
Today ,I'm JohnnyKnoxville's girlfriend :)) Pull-over sweater & aviator or should I say Johnny's shades. hehe .I love you knoxville. Mummy's awake .I came back at almost 3 .I killed them boys in pool at the very last game .Had chicken pasta & milk tea ONLY today .Someone said I look almost aneroxic .But why :( monday tuesday wednesday thursday friday saturday sunday cause everyday s a special day today tmr yesterday everyday s a special day to me !jeng jeng jeng ~Hi-5 song. Me is a hungry piggy .Me wants a breakfast date at MacDonalds .Me skipped fishing plans with min & them .Me hungry piggy .Me wants a breakfast date at MacDonalds .Me wants to gobble up sausage macmuff w egg .Me hungry .Me me mee maggie chop gimme .Ah!stop. macam paham. Labels: i fell down the drain actually |
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Bile rambut aku pendek ,aku feel the new aura all over .Tenguk la ,dulu badan aku at least ade isi .Sekarang aku skinny finny macam french fries .Tapi aku still ok ah sebab aku tak kudut beserak .hha ha hah aa ..tak tau diam. I am tired .I am penat .My body kesian .I was so fly ,I think I self-abused myself .I ve got some bruises & blueblacks on my legs & my two hands & arms macam sakit & there's a scratch on my left ear .Lucky thing ,I didnt fell on my butt like I did some time ago in the lift which makes me cacat for the next three days cus I cant sit .Hah ah aha hahaa I can be in jackass. Aving very bad habit of hunching .Becoming hunchy hunchy. hello fish .ha ha .I want to give u a speech .If its cheesy I dont care ?But like;thanks eh .For all the things .For being there in the cab .For hugging me likea sister when I finally breakdown .For shouting at me & make me shut up .Fortreating me to a buffet just so I can eat more .For accompanying me at home whenI was sick & sad .For buying me my fav sushis when im sick .For giving me the best 18thbirthday .For making me feel better & calming me down with those msges which makes me fall asleep .For replacing my chippy necklace when I called u cryingcus I lost it after that big fight with him .For texting me & making my mornings after my bad nights .For standing up for me when he ditched me .For tolerating my stubborn self .& seriously,for shouting at me & make me shut up .because when I look at u at tt point of time ,even when I was fly ,I can see thru ur eyes that u care ,so much for me.Lastly ,for alway being the only one I see when I turn around & lastly lastly ,for alwayforgiving me even when ur so very disappointed .I know I've disappoint u twice .When Isaid im clean after turning 18 but not & that night :(Its like ;ur the dopest kickass kid I've ever known .And im ever so grateful to have a friend like you :)I can`t wait to get on the road with our sparks .I can`t wait for us to grow up & we`llgo travelling all over the world with the rest of the girls .I love this friend of mine no matterhow screw up u can get sometimes .But during times like that ,u knw i ll be there the most ,whenever & whereever .I will kill all the faggots .K not exactly kill ,but i ll make u feel safe & ...ahh our friendship is made up from alot of fucked up shits that we ve been thru ,so u know I know.Me love fish :)I repeat eh ,me love fishy :) One thing ,after 5 years of knowing u ,I wish I can see my buddy here stop holding a ciggie stick .Like ,Even if they say smoking is nothing.
Love ,na :) Sweetnight ,fish :))
p s u alway say u dont wanna make it sound like u ditched me ,but looking at it & me being the one that found out abt evrythg ,dont u think u just 'ditched' me?
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Yesterday at work ,I was having my 1st day of mens .The cramp ,sucks like fuck .Fish was like "ummm ,kau ok tak ?tk pena kau cramp gini" .So during break ,I sat beside Isha & my body was aching .Ask isha to massage my shoulder .After a few picit2 ,i remembered smthg. because u used to massage my body every month so I wont be having bad cramps when my period comes . That answer fish's question.
& last night ,I was in my room writing in my blue diary when a flying cockroach appear /Fuck. Fucking big flying cockroach. I might sound like a baby ,ha ha I ran outside & cry .I went inside again & it fly again & I ran outside & cry on the floor .My brother is like ,no use uh ask for help .I seriously almost wanted to call u .because u alway kill the flying beetles in my room for me & put me to sleep .Instead ,i took my pillows & bolster & slept outside .& at that point of time I dont know if im crying cus of the cockroach or because I want u there w me.
Hey ,because I still have a heart .Its ok ,I wont tell that bitch anything .Because im just a smallpig ,not a monster .Because u never taught me to do things like that .Because im ana. Im gonna miss you you miss gonna Im .especially those big hugs ....but I ve got T.I ,nelly ,50cent bow wow & pharell so I ll be fine .As alway .Everybody knows but nobody really knows how to make it work ,or how to ease a hurt .I cant believe u ve found somebody else but I wish u the best ,I guess. I love amirin & I know he loves ana too. so this is my goodbye. goodbye baby.
& im falling sick again .Walaouwei ,instant chicken porridge? p s to guys going gaga over Megan Fox ,this is for korg .Megan Fox was a male :)
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Thursday, June 18, 2009
mama ,please ah keep quite .Its my only off day & u just came back fromwork & ur nagging like a chuchutrain .Im so tired already.Sorry ah if i didnt do the housework & my room's a mess butcome on ah ,im tired really really tired .I dont even have time formyself yet .Please ah ,keep quite go washup & sleep. If my responsibility as a daughter is to do all the fucking housework,then might as well I be a maid .I come home everynight after workwith no food left for me .Every single day .Just dirty dishes for me towash .& a full dustbin filled with macDonalds plastic & macspicy boxes &some macflurry cups .How do u think I feel mama ?I ve been toleratingso much .I know i ve not been home lately .I work ?I wish ur my sister so I cantell whats going on but ur not .& I dont have that sister-like bond with umama .Sigh ~i cant make u understand ,sorry. Now Im hearing u coughing in ur room .Are u sick mama ?Please stopshouting ,ur coughing already .Ok im sorry ,imma complete the houseworknow. me very very physically tired :(me fucking broke :(me become skinny :(me very very mentally tired :(butme hair longer :) what to eat todeh?Labels: hi bitch im coming for you |
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
This was way back last year .Yas Fish & me .Sleepover .Ya I know my belly piercing is below .Actually back then I have 4 belly piercings ,on each side .But I took out all 3 & leave my favourite one alone. Me tired .Me went to family chalet right after closing yesterday .Me sleep for 3hrs .Me tired. Tmr is another day. Another day. I need my cider & my king robert. I want my cider & king robert & coke & lighter & my sleeping pills. :(:(:(:(:( Found this. to rohana: take a step back, look what u re doing. think whats best for u. but i swear i ll always be right here if anything happens. i know im in no position to say anything. but........ stand up for yourself abit, just abit. remember those words, u said that to me. its because of those words im still here. love u na :) fishy fishy fishy :( I dont think I should have said all those words because I myself have no clue what im doing right now. Each time Im accompanied with someone ,my heart will be screaming mad to tell & just tell & let it all out .But my mind ,it stops me from everything. My mind tells me a different story & I chose to follow what my mind says. My body breaks down after that 7 days straight of polluting myself w liquors all alone by myself .Its not emo ,im just tired & fucked up messed up hai ho up whateve fuck I didnt want anybody with me .I didnt cry I didnt think of anything. I just drank .with this little kitty beside me .Kinda like running away & make me just stop thinking for awhile.
to myself: The worst thing the truth can do? Is when u finally tell it ,it doesn't set u free ...But locks u away ,forever. That's exactly the reason why im still stuck here. to that boy: I guess I get it ,that im not the finest of the best.
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Sunday, June 14, 2009
If only running away is a solution.
I break my promise to all those ,if u know what I mean :(
These past few weeks ,I ve been hearing alot of takecareS from a bunch of people ;till it makes me wonder ,what does it ;takecare; really means?
Zuhrie accompanied me yesterday night .Its like I was having the worse of time & he rescued me by being a friend & talk to me. & I was almost 2hrs late for work.
Bye ,its time to fly high now. again.
Its like ..........im ruining my life .I know this is not the way but this is the only way that Im able to think of .Call me stupid I dont care Labels: i am not annana |