Sunday, March 29, 2009
3 bungalows ,chefs all over. ultra massive awesome foodspread. guitar hero ,3 DJs ,smokemachine. dancefloor ,cool geeks. absolute ,abs peach ,chivas ,baileys ,carlsberg.HANGOVER @ WORK. the party speaks for itself. the only frustating thing was when they all stop me from drinking more. & thanks to the boys for caring. happy 18thbirthday jess`!Thanks for the geeky day :)May u be bless w a good life ahead.& its 29thMarch`09. kit's birthday today. A month before my birthday. & my ex-bestfriend's birthday.
Coffee presentation day was ay ok.Nothing great for me ,but I just lovehow the night ended :)Now ..lets save electricity.I did my part & fell asleep.Labels: torned bow tie |
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
well ,lets chill.chill and eat sotong hitam.and newyork cheesecake and ice water. "Without" is the non existence of "existence" in one s conscious mind. Im forcing myself to draw.so do not disturb ,part 2. Perhaps u have not noticed ,or maybe u have.but things may not be as u have imagined.. |
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
LIFE SHOULD BEGIN WITH THE LETTER 'B'.LIFE IS A FUCKING BITCH ;fyiLabels: do not disturb |
Friday, March 20, 2009
sigh .For the first time in 2009 ,I feel like vomitting every second .I ve been eating non-stop since 8am .My throat is being a fucking bitch .Apart from the sickness ,I dont feel good inside .I really really have so many things up here in my brain .Why cant things just go away ?If I can have one wish ,I wish im at Keppel Bay alone ,to just sit & stare & have countless scoops of ice cream.
& the stupidest thing is ,I bought my usual milk early morning when I know my throat cant take it.
vomit. muntah. vomit. As if im pregnant .Cb.
& im cashless already. I need a big hug. & a sweet treat .cookies?
I just have 2 slices of watermelon. my first watermelon in 2009.haha.
hmmmm ,maggie sounds nice. ok quit eating for today~
You ,dont talk to me. Labels: numb thumb bump |
Thursday, March 19, 2009
I miss my girls.& it was so fun like clean fun .Just to spend & end the day with them. Im watching sweet sixteen right now & i think tt the best parties are only availablein Miami .& the girls are all oh so sexy & pretty & its fucking happening.wee ~I wanna go I wanna go .ha ha ,miami ,my dream honeymoon destination.u guys shud knw by now. mummy didnt cook today ,Im starving .So I cook some maggie & im still starving because maggie dont make u full .It makes u hungry like just as hungry as how u felt before u havethe maggie itself .ha hA ,In other words ,maggie dont work on hungry people.cb ,im talking alot again. bye peeps ,essay killing me. p.s I might be having sore throat.Labels: ciara is hot |
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
It was my first time trying out Left 4 Dead .& it rocks man !ha ha ha .Fucking fun.& giggling with ziella on the phone for 19mins non-stop made me so tired like shit.Like right now ?Tmr is my store meeting .For the upcoming coffee presentation.Im in charge of the invitation & nothing else .I dont want to get too involve. Jess party will be coming soon .Im excited .But like ,the geek theme ?I have no ideahow to pull it off .The specs will do the trick but like ,I dont wana wear spec.What s a party with specs ?Gonna be stepped on .But for the birthday girl ,maybe I will. I met fish before she start her shift yest .ha ha .I kept saying we re screwed we re screwed.we re fucked up .ha ha ha ha ha .U guys wont know la .She went to work & I went stoning for an hour half at the roadside ,alone .Calm atmosphere yet disturbing enough inside .It felt empty .I was tryna think of somethng but half the time ,my mind s not working .I wanted to have kinder egg & forget abt everythg at tt point of time but saint picked me up ,erasing the word "alone/empty" for like 30mins ?He was nice enough to send me back & talk but I dont think it work.I have so much inside yet I cant let out a single thing .& the easiest thing was to say im fine & talk things tts on the surface already .Nothing too deep ,nothing too little. Things like this makes me very tired & sloppy .I really dont know whats wrong.Question marks twirling ard my head .I don t know whats right & wrong.Im preety fucked up .I look like a straight up junkie .Im tryna be everyone's shoulderto lean on when I myself needed a fucking good one .Much of a giver than a taker.I put people s problems first before mine .You know ,all these things im doing ,doesnt makesense .At all .But like ,I guess this is the part where Im gonna mess up almost everythg &then there will be just this one day when I finally pops back .ha ha so yeah im in for what lifehave to offer. Like now ,I am eating MacSpicy w VEGETABLES (infocheck ;me no like veggies) & I wonder why my burger have this clorine aftertaste .Like the clorine in swimming pool .Or is it just my throat being badly polluted by ....?Or maybe some bitchy McD person tryna poison me?Or im just plain making it up. Im talking alot right now.yeah what im doing now .talking mutely .ha ha ,its better.because u can alway backspace the part u dont like .How terrific will it be if I can backspace life .backspace parts tt I wish didnt happen .Make my life super perfect.ha ha ha hh ah ah a .Take example ,backspace the part when I cut my hair short. Cb i need to finish up my maccy spicy & apple & peach tea.before its too late.too late =,=Since when mum banned me from keeping my food insidethe fridge.So I am...literally dumb.ugh.& getting really slow in the brain. fuck u mary mary much~Labels: putty eraser |
Thing is ,I really wana blog ,but I dont know what to blog about .Tmr is drawing class.Its a harmless lesson ,unlike today .Total killer .Im awfully bloated .Mee kuah & then bed ,sounds heavy aint it .I need a bloody wake up call tmr @ 7 .Anyone willing ?Being a pig is not fun .Same old excuses for being slightly late ,late ,very late ,fucking late or might-as-well-absent late. Im gona go text someone & then off to bed.see ya.Labels: sweetnights |
Monday, March 16, 2009
When im painting ,it totally shuts me from reality .Drown by my playlist .I love painting .And I love being that I am ,a messy painter .It gives me a sense of satisfaction .My hands they move around ,filling all the white spaces .And I can call it done & continue with another piece ,not a slight feeling of tiredness .I am not as creative as people thought I am but when I see an idea ,my creative cells spread like crazy & I make it work .Painting keeps me going .There's this point of life when I literally hated my dad so much ,I tried writing scribbling & blabla .It got into a pile of notes ,still kept ,untouch .but I got tired of it cause writing is never my thing .I started painting on my walls ,I was in love w fairytales & pixies then .So I did this white pony & considering the timeline I took ,it was one of my best .I have to stop when my grandad said that painting all these aint a good thing. So I still am ,a messy painter .Fabulously messy .I ll be so worked up ,I look like a gangster painting .Crossed legged ,one leg on another chair ,so-not-a-girl ,leaning against the wall ,hunching like a junkie .Minding my business .Isle infront or a board on my lap .I love it .& ears plugged .I cant paint & talk ,it wont work .Cause I ll paint what I know ,not what I see .& the outcome=disgusting. I too ,secretly ,have a thing for sewing .Remember the first bikini i wore ,the pink one .I did it myself & the 2nd one ?did it myself too & some red dress i made .Yeah ,I know ,im a total dummy & have zero experience in fashion design ,but it interest me ,secretly .I dont know ,just somewhere inside of me ,a little passion for it but it never wana come out .I just dont feel the need to learn fashion design right now .Maybe in `10 yrs time? I am an octupus with more than 8 tenticles .I know I can do so much .Proudly saying that I have magical hands .& that is the greatest gift God have ever created out of me .If I lost my hands ,my life is preety much over.Labels: annana the painter |
im in love with yuna.very very much in love. im in love with deeperconversation. I want a black acoustic.fuck.my little cousin took it.& im nver getting it back.Labels: she got style |
Sunday, March 15, 2009
why are u doing this to me.
If I could turn back time. Just once. It ll be that time when I sat with u on the beach. Sands on our butts. & I revealed smthg tt I knew was a mistake. A fucking big Mistake.
I cant probably change things now. Now tt its blown out of proportion. & there s nothing in this chaotic mind of mine
can I do to help. Im stuck in between my braincells.
Dear fish, because I care so much that im still finding a way. to make it all go away. To make it better. Im still finding a way. Stay with me ;just a little more.
im still the statue I was talking about.Everythings gonna be fine.
love;na.
p.s philosophical bloggers make my head dizzy.& to u.
for being there ,whenever & wherever I needed u. maybe im just too difficult? Labels: realize |
If im stupid.to do this thing.Then don't blame me. No saint ,im sorry. |
Saturday, March 14, 2009
I paint & completed 2 assignments today .Its a relieve since painting requires alot of time.I wanted to paint my watercolour landscape butseems like my body s gonna trip if i do just that ,so I stop.I am a gorilla today .I ate 2 big servings of rice.first w sweet sour fish ,second w chicken cutlet.mama say "ish ,kau tak bace bismillah ke mkn" hehe .opsy i gotta poopsy. Tomo gona be work .Hais.hais .I have to savour one of the last moment with my bigsplash family.I swear this is the saddest thing tt could ever happen.BL is not gonna be BL anymore ,im sure.ahhh fuck .I hate it sia.cb cb cb cb cb cb cb.it ll come crashing down.sooner ,very soon. I want to sleep.sleepy peepy.Labels: lay smashed picture perfect |
Friday, March 13, 2009
I need to get away from this island fast.the problems are neverending.& im nver gonna be able to solve it. I need a break.from everything.Just once.Give me a miracle.Just once.I need to knw that they are fine.The people i love.Every single one of them. Thats all I ever wish for right now.Labels: my friends and I |
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
hello .Im so gonna die when school reopen. dammit ~I hate the piled up assignments.
I own this Keppel Bay .Fucking nicest shit ever. Bonine & cylde. cept tt ;we rock more.
Not fair ,mum's going to the truespa facial & she didnt book for me :( Boohoo ,I wana go .Mum said I can go this sunday but alone. WAH piang ;alone eh .Imagine my face.
I smell bad. I am a pig. I doze off w/o changin my clothes yest. w/o washing my face. Eew ,I am a pig. My kaminomoto bottle is empty. I need it so bad. & now mum joins in the kaminomoto gang. ha ha.
Oh no ,I ran out out Dove body wash. & my facial wash is running low. Alamak ,everytime I got my pay I have to fork out money for my shampoos & conditioner & facial wash & body wash & deodorant & concession & now bill & blablabla. boring uh like that every month.
Fucking sleepy. fucking cb sleepy peepy.
Having a store meeting this evening .Cant wait. There's siput sedut ,chilli crabs ,lala ,prawns & so much more! :):):):):)
fuck assignments. Labels: sensual pyhsical fantasy maybe |
Monday, March 9, 2009
The weather's perfect.I have lots to do.Lots & lots. xoxoannana.Labels: guardian angel |
Sunday, March 8, 2009
finally i've got the time to blog .That ,is also because I give a miss to zuhris's little bruther party.I just got back from a short trip to Jb .A day spent w mum .Real nice~ Howwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww the hell am I doing? buzy with life .I guess im getting back my carefree life.work is not like work .Its like love .Like family .They're my homies.School & me have been escalating .ha ha ~I just dont find it interesting to be doing schh work right now .& I miss my slamdougs so much ,i ve not meet them since last monday.Oh don't worry ,we're gonna spend like 3 yrs together :))They're the best.I just need these 2 weeks to catch up w peoples. excitements ,temptations ,question marks ,everything.the wild side of me is coming .I really feel like the best part of my life is just starting.Oh yes ,my life is definitely back. 27th will be jess's birthday party .Its gonna be fucking sick man ~yeah hah.watch out u rich bitch ;imma rock u down.hah aha hah aaa .why am i so evil ,suddenly? feel like i ve lost touch of blogging.or am I too tired.loving life as it is :))"we came we saw we bump now lets get out." "Sometime ,things have to get worst before it gets better"Labels: its not empty but still empty |
Friday, March 6, 2009
fucking need a kneadable eraser.Labels: catch up soon |