Tuesday, April 28, 2009
"The deepest hole" .I love how u can easily relate to this artwork ,Done by me :)) I tell u ,if u carry on with that fucking revengeful i-wanna-make-u-jealous kinda thing ,u're not even gonna make it halfway thru ur life .Because ur heart is as black as charcoal .THICK THICK ego babi shit ,immature & forever an attention-seeker .I don't like to dislike a person but in ur case ,its an exception. I have to wait till tmr to weewee .I wanted to but too bad I saw a cockroach & hop out of the toilet like an aladin+crab .Today started out so sour ,I almost cried in class early morning .Yet again ,angry child .But things got better after that .Friends alway make me smile :)Thank u my friends. Hehhs ,according to the time now ,its 1.41am .On a tuesday .So tmr's date is 29April2009. he he ,i forgot uh .what day it is tmr =D
Labels: anger is not my middle name |
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Secondary 4 (me pig) Because I miss being a kid .A kid waking up at 6.45am every morning on weekdays ,wearing a bagpack ,taking bus 60 & hoping not to be late .Now ,here I am ,17 going 18 in 3 more days with big responsibilities & I am not ready .To take a step forward to being a young adult .I don't want to go anywhere further than this .I ve learn too much things .I ve had too much 'beentheredonethat' kinda thing. I have 3 draft saved already .I know if i post it ,it will ruin some things that can be make do .I don't know .These past 4 days ,I ve been an angry child .So angry so so angry ,fish heard how I cried like a little kid over the phone .How she saw me in my most ridiculous character at Market Place .I'm too preoccupied it made me like this ..Its more to angry then frustrated .There's so much angst in me ,I don't even know who I am. Im a tauran & according to my horoscope ,not that it matters but somehow is true ,we don't like changes .I don't like changes when I like something .Take example my vanilla scent &my green contacts & my love for sex bands .Well ,I dont know how to put it here in a nice manner ah .its gruesomely babi if I let it all out.Labels: not yet close to being happy |
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
I give up .I failed to do the 1000word essay .I know 'giving up' is not me ,but when it comes to words & philosophical & literature-like stuffs ,i will procrastinate till the very last minute .I cant do that kinda stuff .I KNOW I SUCK AH BECAUSE IT SEEMS LIKE I NEVER TRY .I did ,at the very last moment & then realise tt who in the world ,esp someone like me (myhighschfriendsshudknow) would complete a 1000word in less than 8hrs .I can ah , but it ll be full of unnecessary sentences & info & half of it dont make sense .Ziella would prolly be rolling on the floor laughing & I end up getting a huge capital letter 'F' .So its the same uh .I feel so inferior by my friends .SIGHsighSIGH. I can stop bragging now and warm up my fritata or I can continue blogging.
ARGH cb sia sia sia sia sia sia sia sia sia sia sia sia .babi.
im scared of Yr 2 & Yr 3 ;no its not abt the hectic schedule ,its abt the future essays :(
Gossip girl ,help me? Labels: Thanks dad for the paints n stuffs |
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
I just saw an ugly fashionista~no ,not only face .including the hair ,body ,clothes & the way he carries himself ....*slaps forehead* .He looks more likza fucking nutella bimbo fuck. its the 20th of April .9 more days till lalala 18 .pre-legal ,i say .I cant wait .Holiday coming in a few weeks .But on the down side ,assessments/assignments are slam right in front of my face .Its a nightmare & im pretty scared...............chick en.... Min im gonna come over to your place on wed & get my digital art done .U gotta help me seriously .I know u & photoshop are bestfriends since highsch. Goodbye people.I ve been so occupied lately & I just dont find theneed to tell here .Pictures ?ha ha .taktau~Labels: BRB BRB BRB BRB BRB |
Monday, April 13, 2009
school .school .school .12 hrs of school on monday .Ritter sport & murtabak filled me tummy.
Thank you very much .For all the discrimination I got from being a friend .Sigh ~Life is nver fair .When im trying to do something good ,people goddamn mistook it .Polluted negative thinking minds .sigh sigh sigh .But im still here .I dont give a fuck .Dont worry ,I ll be there ,no matter how shitty it gets .Fuck what people thinks ah .They dont have a bloody clue of what our friendship is made off .I guess the past will alway linger .Its so hard to even give a chance & turn over a fresh page for a fresh start & just fucking bloody burn the thousand pages before.Like back then ,dad used to accuse me of smoking.when ciggie butt never touch my lips before.dammit ah ah ah.Ugh. Melodramatic fools ,neurotic to the brains no doubt about it. & yes .I thought u said u believe in me .That im special in a million ways .But im halfway there & u already give up on me .You re unsure of what u used to believe .Im not even there yet & I know i can never blame anyone for whatever things I do .But ,to have shared all the things in the world with u & a phonecall attached w a story that I was dying to tell u & as eager as hell to listen to some comforting words that would make me feel a whole lot better ,turns out so numb .Like if i can i would just backspaced the fucknut conversation .Maybe u dont know me just yet .Maybe its easier to look at the negatives .There s no point to even prove to anyone but myself because people now are so fucking brainwashed & judgemental & typically naive .Where are the rare breeds? but because i ve promise to particularly u,i ll show u ,what im made of.im much more tougher ,im one of the rare breeds. Ok breath in & out.breath in & out annana. Thanks to salvador dali & resse for making history ppt interesting & ju for the murtabak & just listening to me & ziella for the mac dinner treat & dad for fetching me home & amirin for the eyemo.I love & I care .I get mad .I still love & I care ;for everyone of u & u guys shud know who :)) I need an ice cream treat & a bighug from a total stranger.because strangers are disfunctional beings.
Labels: officially tembel and mary berry angry |
Friday, April 10, 2009
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Monday, April 6, 2009
snort snort. flame flame.
nice meeting u gordon. Ur giving me a headache. |
Today is monday. No longer a brunette. Red head is sad because she is penniless.
Close ur eyes & count to ten so John Legend will rescue u red head. John Legend is not that handsome which makes him very mr. handsome. ps ;collecting & not cutting fringe .TRYing. |
Sunday, April 5, 2009
This is fish .Or fishy .Farhana but I call her fish 98.7% of the time. The story goes like this.
As u can see ,Chip is my nick at work .& its because of fish I got e name .I dont know why they cant pronounce a name as simple as 'na' .(2 letter word) .I ve got 2 options. fish & chip .Fillet o fish .OF COURSE I WONT CHOOSE FILLET.
oh ,anywees .Fish is one of the greatest friends I ve ever had in my entire life .We both have been thru so much ,nobody knows .I can fairly say ,she s my everything .Not that im a lessy or what ,we do go gaga over hotties & she knows my type of guy :) Apart from being my fellow worker or shud I say colleague ,she is also my latenight friend .wth?ha ha. So im still talking abt her .Few days back ,she place this necklace ard my neck .(below) & said its part of my birthday surprise .She got the Dale ,I got the Chip .I smiled .very delightly .I kept looking at my new chippy .& I noticed somethg .he he ,which was very cute !Chip got the same teeth as me .my bunny teeth !he he .(see below again) .oh it took place at work .We were workin` on e same shift.& today .I was browsing thru my pictures & I came across this picture .& it really reminds me of my chip !he he h eh ehe .See my bunny teeth & chip s bunny teeth !cute eh.
Thankyou & I love u fishy.
xoxo C
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Thursday, April 2, 2009
My week have almost been fully granted.Just the way I want it :)I hop it ll end like last week.Cus last week awe-awe-awesome. The day after jess party was work & sundaywas jemputan w family @ Jb.& the next day which is a monday ,was Sentosa w my starbuck family :)Tuesday was Vivo after sch ,w kin's friends ,which was great ,only thebusride home sucks ,fucking long. ride.wednesday was my day w Ziella ,I did 4 extensions & get out nails done.& I met up w amirin ,thanks for all the food :)Thank you very much.Drop by his house to meet my IKA & his family !she still fucking cute ;D & Today ,is the most boring day of the week !I went straight home. Its been very hard for me ,especially in school .I have 27 more days to go .Just 27 more daystill I have to stop .I wana be a clean 18yr old .I ve been eating like crazy & i get sorestless easily ,it kills me .& I know ,its not gonna stop after the eating part .Theres more to come .Sometimes in between lesson ,I feel like crying .Its not painful,it just makes me weak ,n smile-less .Fuck. & TODAY MARKS THE BIRTHDAY OF MY BESTEST GIRL.MASS MASS MASS :))))):)))Dear mass ,I love & miss u.Im gonna meet u very very soon .I miss u i miss u.happy birthday & smille ahey. Im bloggin like a boring blogger.Labels: abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz |