school .school .school .12 hrs of school on monday .Ritter sport & murtabak filled me tummy.
Thank you very much .For all the discrimination I got from being a friend .Sigh ~Life is nver fair .When im trying to do something good ,people goddamn mistook it .Polluted negative thinking minds .sigh sigh sigh .But im still here .I dont give a fuck .Dont worry ,I ll be there ,no matter how shitty it gets .Fuck what people thinks ah .They dont have a bloody clue of what our friendship is made off .I guess the past will alway linger .Its so hard to even give a chance & turn over a fresh page for a fresh start & just fucking bloody burn the thousand pages before.
Like back then ,dad used to accuse me of smoking.
when ciggie butt never touch my lips before.
dammit ah ah ah.
Ugh.
Melodramatic fools ,neurotic to the brains no doubt about it.
& yes .I thought u said u believe in me .That im special in a million ways .But im halfway there & u already give up on me .You re unsure of what u used to believe .Im not even there yet & I know i can never blame anyone for whatever things I do .But ,to have shared all the things in the world with u & a phonecall attached w a story that I was dying to tell u & as eager as hell to listen to some comforting words that would make me feel a whole lot better ,turns out so numb .Like if i can i would just backspaced the fucknut conversation .Maybe u dont know me just yet .Maybe its easier to look at the negatives .There s no point to even prove to anyone but myself because people now are so fucking brainwashed & judgemental & typically naive .Where are the rare breeds?
but because i ve promise to particularly u,
i ll show u ,what im made of.
im much more tougher ,im one of the rare breeds.
Ok breath in & out.
breath in & out annana.
Thanks to salvador dali & resse for making history ppt interesting & ju for the murtabak & just listening to me & ziella for the mac dinner treat & dad for fetching me home & amirin for the eyemo.
I love & I care .I get mad .I still love & I care ;for everyone of u & u guys shud know who :))
I need an ice cream treat & a big
hug from a total stranger.
because strangers are disfunctional beings.
Monday, April 13, 2009