& giggling with ziella on the phone for 19mins non-stop made me so tired like shit.
Like right now ?Tmr is my store meeting .For the upcoming coffee presentation.
Im in charge of the invitation & nothing else .I dont want to get too involve.
Jess party will be coming soon .Im excited .But like ,the geek theme ?I have no idea
how to pull it off .The specs will do the trick but like ,I dont wana wear spec.
What s a party with specs ?Gonna be stepped on .But for the birthday girl ,maybe I will.
I met fish before she start her shift yest .ha ha .I kept saying we re screwed we re screwed.
we re fucked up .ha ha ha ha ha .U guys wont know la .She went to work & I went stoning for an hour half at the roadside ,alone .Calm atmosphere yet disturbing enough inside .It felt empty .I was tryna think of somethng but half the time ,my mind s not working .I wanted to have kinder egg & forget abt everythg at tt point of time but saint picked me up ,erasing the word "alone/empty" for like 30mins ?He was nice enough to send me back & talk but I dont think it work.
I have so much inside yet I cant let out a single thing .& the easiest thing was to say im fine & talk things tts on the surface already .Nothing too deep ,nothing too little.
Things like this makes me very tired & sloppy .I really dont know whats wrong.
Question marks twirling ard my head .I don t know whats right & wrong.
Im preety fucked up .I look like a straight up junkie .Im tryna be everyone's shoulder
to lean on when I myself needed a fucking good one .Much of a giver than a taker.
I put people s problems first before mine .You know ,all these things im doing ,doesnt make
sense .At all .But like ,I guess this is the part where Im gonna mess up almost everythg &
then there will be just this one day when I finally pops back .ha ha so yeah im in for what life
have to offer.
Like now ,I am eating MacSpicy w VEGETABLES (infocheck ;me no like veggies) & I wonder why my burger have this clorine aftertaste .Like the clorine in swimming pool .Or is it just my throat being badly polluted by ....?Or maybe some bitchy McD person tryna poison me?
Or im just plain making it up.
Im talking alot right now.
yeah what im doing now .talking mutely .ha ha ,its better.
because u can alway backspace the part u dont like .How terrific will it be if I can backspace life .backspace parts tt I wish didnt happen .Make my life super perfect.
ha ha ha hh ah ah a .Take example ,backspace the part when I cut my hair short.
Cb i need to finish up my maccy spicy & apple & peach tea.
before its too late.
too late =,=Since when mum banned me from keeping my food inside
the fridge.
So I am...
literally dumb.
ugh.
& getting really slow in the brain.
fuck u mary mary much~
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