Things can't just work out the way we want to ,can it?
I thought I was over being restless .But something else came up & all
I can do now is wonder whats gonna happen next .Life really is themost challenging game ever .Why .Just when I thought evrythgs fine.
Just when I thought.
It will work out eventually but then its ,eventually .Not now ,or maybe later or the next next year or whatever .I suck at this game .This life game .Its fcuking complicated & I cant
figure anythg out.
Im worried sick.AHH!shit.
Today was normal ,tired & sticky.
Hey ,using my sane brain today,
Im gonna say this .That I will never look back .At my past with hakim .I never will look at him & feel the same way again .I guess I really suck at getting over u .suckiest feeling ever .im trying very hard & I think i can do this .Im getting over u .My life is not alway abt u .I mourned I cried I missed I dreamt I loved I cared I tried so much for u & thght u might appreciate it someday but u nver did .For as long as I've waited ,for as long as 3yrs ,u nver did .I alway thought there was a chance ,eventually .but I can't wait for eventually to eventually arrive .all u did was played me .over n over again .& all I did was to forgive u over n over again .Im beginning to see the clear msg b ,tt we might have this strong chemistry togther but im not the one ,never have never will .U took a part of me but im done baby .Im finally done .I'll slip away from u & nver come back.
because ,because of u ,my life's nver been the same.
I just have one word to let it all out.
cheebai.
I think for the first time in a long while ,I can sleep peacefully tonight.
yay .three cheers for me.
Sunday, February 1, 2009