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2009-07-27T23:23:00.004+08:00

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One thing at a time ,baby steps.

I don't know whats wrong with me.

EVRY MOVE I MAKE NOW IS CUS I NEED TO ,NOT CUS I WANT TO.
I need to not I want to
I need to not I want to

its like compulsory ,its not up to me.

at times like this ,I feel like getting a tattoo & doing handstand.
& someone feed me with 10 tons of frozenyogurt with honeycoated cornflakes topping
because I hate sushi ,for the first time.

I ve yet learn how to take the good & bad ,happy & the sad & bring the better future.

Hi my name is annana & keri hilson ,if I may ask,
how do u get up ,when love knock u down?

2009-07-23T22:01:00.001+08:00

something happen to me 5hrs ago......

2009-07-21T10:46:00.003+08:00

breakfast is Quaker Chewy Cookies & Cream Granola bar.
morning is mp3 + bus 65.
I can't believe im sitting in class learning about animation .from clay to lego animation.
I hate animation I hate digital thingy .I hate photoshop I hate dreamweaver I hate all those
xpensive softwares .ha ha I love to complain when Im schooling .School ends at 6 errday.
work is mon fri sat errweek.
so buzyyyyy :(sad la i .belly sad.
BUT WHY.
naemind .keeps me away from thinking abt things tt shud not be think abt.
eg .like when will my hair will be as long as francesca.

I met fish after sch semalam & im getting a smoooth criminal pair of heeeeels next week !Fetish for
boxers & hoodies & slippers .hoodies & slippers & boxers .When can I get my baby riverisland & my
fucking punching bag,
I WANT A BLOODY PUNCHING BAG.

2009-07-19T18:15:00.004+08:00

1 8 /practising western painter
Lost my soul to a boy so heartless
im soulsearhing...
I can be whoever & whatever I want in a splitsec.
fucking stubborn
still as kickass as ever.

Days been fine ,days been fine ,been sober for a few nights .I need to get away from all these
drama .Dad s been mad .blabla .Friends been kickass .Flings bore & annoys me evry 2sec.
Im quieter now ,as a person .If I kill anyone somewher in the future ,my bad.

How could u be so Dr.Evil?
ur bringin` out a side of me that I don't knw
I decided we wasn't gon speak so
why we end up 3 a.m under ur block?

but there s no such thing now.
im annana & noone else.

2009-07-16T21:06:00.002+08:00

Y`all gon ahead

I think imma kick it with my boy today :)

2009-07-09T21:52:00.017+08:00

He owes me Macflurry & MacSpicy .He lives beside my block & he is my neighbour & we used to have a fantabulous platonic relationship during our secondarysch years .I was his highest score in the game of puzzlebobble in his phone . I made him sad & he used to hate me very much .But we re cool cool cool now & are still damn cool smiley buddies :))

The first time I saw kris allen ,it reminds me so much of him so errtime im watchin or listening to kris allen ,I get all telurcited & will text him .He can sing & play the guitar too .I call him my veryown kris allen .Hi my name is annana & this is not-yet-eighteen yr old Md Afiq :):):):):)

2009-07-09T03:30:00.007+08:00

volcom volcom volcom!

Sial ah .Looking at things ,I think Im doing really good to like move on but fuck ah I hate the feeling to be force to be talking to u sarcastic ly to be force to feel angry to be force to smile when I bump into u .Alot of things flicker in my mind during that point of time.

sial ah takkn sia aku ade matai dari clementi .baek atau tak baek .jatuhkn maruah je -anon
hahahahahaahahahaha puki kau ,ala da jadi typical2 mat ite ape ,mesti ah -me.

puki punye ite clementi .I wish this fucking school
dont exist .No ,I wish u ll just stay stuck in secondarysch.
puki.

mother looking at me tell me what do u see yes I ve lost my mind
daddy looking at me will I ever be free have I cross the line?

ZIELLA BUKAN LITTLE PUPPY LA ,SMALL PUPPY w the heart .bunyi buruk uh aku
mcm katak tebalek ,tapi tetap kau sayang aku kan aku buat gitu ,sampai terbengkok lutut.

2009-07-05T01:20:00.003+08:00

Keri Hilson ,hi :)

They say that if u don't sleep for 3 days straight there s a possibility of death .Today's the 2nd day so if I stay awake till tmr ,I might die on the 4th day.

Everynight I go sneaking out the door ,I lie a little more
there s something about the night & the way it hides all
the things I like

Nick's visiting me next particular saturday w his new supermotard aprillia :)Telurcited.
he fucking race w his larmborghini pal .this is the best thg abt caucasians ,money like newwater.
aprillia & ducati supermotards turn me on especially when they growl to em other scrambler
dickies.

180 more on a sunday.

2009-07-03T08:31:00.003+08:00

:(Ima helpless .Ima sad cat.
yesterday I went downsouth again.
I think u guys shud know what huh

min kau tag aku kul 12.45am ckap gitu
atu kul 3am kau call aku ajak fly.
merepek nye chicken. =,=
and ya I know scary but enta.

Thank you dad dad dad :)
I know I ve been coming home evryday at 4.
but those little msges ,I knw u still care.
Thank you mama :)
For cooking & taking care of my tummy.
But now .Im craving for Macnonels hehe

Yesterday I snuggled my head under my guyfriend's armpit & sleep .he noticed when I keep adjusting a few times & was asking me why im under his armpit.
& I remembered u :( U know its my favourite spot :(
Yesterday azie texted me smthg ,sorry I didnt reply ,I was ummm ..I keep on
reading the text msg again & again & it makes me sad :( Thats y u nver hear me talking abt
him when we went out .I dont want to be sad.

I ve told u people ,I like those this that little things that makes life great & give the best feeling.
k la ,I need to have my macnonel cheapthrill & milktea.

I LEARN SOMETHING TUDEH.
-That I might like this guy like that guy but I can only love one guy.

2009-07-01T03:23:00.009+08:00

"Hello anna syg.How are you? Instead of buying for mami struddle, ayun treat mami and abah sushi at payalebar.thankyou anna:-)

anna nari work?"

Sender:

Mummy

+65kritkritt

Sent:

08:04:31 pm

30-Jun-2009

"N ya i forget.yes i will buy mami struddle when i get my pay..bye:-("

Sender:

KhairulAmirin

+65kritkrit

Sent:

05:30:57pm

23-Jun-2009

Thank you u .For doing that for me .I ve been wanting to buy her(his mum) struddle since forever .Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you for fulfilling one of my last wishes tt I want u to do for me .No matter what u did behind me or whatever ever ,i ll still forgive u because u ve been someone very special to me .No one will understand why im like that when it comes to u ,xcept for me .Now im gona bury the thoughts of you & me deep enuf so I wont cry.

Dear readers ,I guess thats it.

Thats how we end it.

Thats the end of amirin & anna,

our love story.

Did I end it well?

dont ever treat her like how u treat me ,be it good or bad.

xoxo

littleredbox.

2009-06-30T02:33:00.009+08:00

My rascal partner in school .Ha ha I can do all the crappy shit with her cus we're the same age & I miss u !I hope
ur doing fine there :)) Done by :Juggy Ju!! He s thaAa man!

"Hi ana. I miss you! Hehe k tu je aku nak cakap. Ha ha"

Sender:
Ziella
+65tetetetet07
Sent:
09:45:15pm
25-Jun-2009

Cute right ?& Kin's chatting with me.
:))

If there's another britnehh used-to-be & the next door blondie hottie i wish to be is this girl right here .Lepak huh she ?I like her hair & her face & her hot hot body .Well yeah ,ms pixie here ,I like her alot .She's very ruggard yet a sweetie.

Remember jess's GEEKS PARTY ?It was hellava night .I wanna go to that kinda party again :))I miss tat kinda wild night.
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This is my friend ,Maisarah :))I hate the geeky specs im wearing.

Part of my starbucks familia :))
They're great generous genuine peoples .Ha ha stupid asses.

& remember sheesha & when I just cut my hair ?Ha hahha .They are my sec sch mates.
Irritating like shit but still alway put a smile on my face.

Lastly ,I miss my other half .The whole of them .I miss that family which I use to hangout alot with eating breakfast w them on sunday mornings & getting our power naps together before going out .I miss I miss /Especially that littlegirl & her grandma :(

My day have been ummm ,mundane .But work was kinda fun though .Ju ,thanks ju ,thanks alot thanks thanks :)Other than that ,payday's brought forward to the 3rd :))Payday reminds me
of struddle :(Next :I'm very happy .My mum cook today & Im very happy .So happy .Very very
happy ,I must eat !hehe .Chicken curry with soft potatoes ,I like :):):):):)

Goodnight errbody!

2009-06-29T04:39:00.004+08:00

Muka belum mandi mesti comel. GOOD MORNING SAYANG :)

Just came back from simpang supper :))
no red ruby :((
I got myself a big besa prawn & lotsa veggies.
Tasted so blend ,like orang saket's dish.

Now I feel sleepy .Its because of the kueh.
Yay me happy .Mummy give me one roti boyan :))

6.01am !must wake fish up .ha ha .Everyone start schooling cept for meh.

2009-06-28T04:16:00.002+08:00

why is everyone not updating their blogs huh .haiyak .Today's off day!
I was suppost to go out with some people but like ,i cancel it & went with feroz & friends .So I bought some food for fishy first since she only had buttery croissant =,= & send it to her workplace .Chey padahal kerja same tempat .Tetapi....
So sad ,fishy was not feeling well & cant finished her food ,even her favourite ,fried chicken.
I chilled there & when off only after midnight =,= we went out & eat the famous Tau Huay(?) & the Char Kuay .Sedap very best :))I like .Meet some friends & went of to esplanade.
Ya I know ,esplanade sia like ,i seem to not like that place ah don't knw y .I can count with one hand how many times I've been to that place this year. Ha ha I've got myself 2 car escort .Lepak
or what so like when we finally reach my house ,everyone went out from both cars ,like wanna
go gang fight .ha ha ha ha thats my story.
Actually im wasting my time while watching manja lara to kill time cus I don't wanna sleep since I have work at 7am later on .Like an hr more to go ,so ya .

Haiz ,i miss u ah.

2009-06-27T04:30:00.002+08:00

SKINNY.

I miss sneaking out of my room right after u went to work at 7am in the
morning to go check out ur cookings for the family today.
Usually ,i ll wash up & eat straight away cus I can't resist then go back to bed.
But now ,since u rent that stall & quit ur previous job,
u've been neglecting ur duty to provide sufficient food for the family ,or 4 this case its
neglecting me ?I can like ,not taste rice for as long as 3 days .Because everytime u come
back from work ,i'll be rushing off to work .& if u bring the leftovers
from ur stall ,it ll be like ,sigh .Its been so long since I saw rice inside
the rice cooker .My stomach is making noises most of the time now.
mama ,ur littlegirl is getting skinny .Please takecare of her.
enta ..macam pilih kasih gitu .It have alway been like this right ?Im alway
the least amg them .I learn to deal w it throughout my 18yrs of living .just
sometimes ,it gets into me ,like right now.

Since I used to have an angel who makes sure I have something to eat everyday &
make sure im not hungry ,its been hard ,cus that angel flew away & I have no one to
really complain & whine to .So I havta takecare of myself & I didn't know finding food is that tough ,especially when ure left with 15cents.

annana's sleepy.
for the first time.
at 5.02am.
Ugh ,make up still on.

2009-06-26T03:32:00.002+08:00

Today ,I'm JohnnyKnoxville's girlfriend :))
Pull-over sweater & aviator or should I say Johnny's shades.
hehe .I love you knoxville.

Mummy's awake .I came back at almost 3 .I killed them boys in pool at the very
last game .Had chicken pasta & milk tea ONLY today .Someone said
I look almost aneroxic .But why :(

monday tuesday wednesday thursday friday saturday sunday cause everyday s a special day today tmr yesterday everyday s a special day to me !jeng jeng jeng ~Hi-5 song.

Me is a hungry piggy .Me wants a breakfast date at MacDonalds .Me skipped fishing plans
with min & them .Me hungry piggy .Me wants a breakfast date at MacDonalds .Me wants
to gobble up sausage macmuff w egg .Me hungry .Me me mee maggie chop gimme .Ah!stop.
macam paham.

2009-06-24T15:12:00.007+08:00

Bile rambut aku pendek ,aku feel the new aura all over .Tenguk la ,dulu badan aku at least ade isi .Sekarang aku skinny finny macam french fries .Tapi aku still ok ah sebab aku tak
kudut beserak .hha ha hah aa ..tak tau diam.

I am tired .I am penat .My body kesian .I was so fly ,I think I self-abused myself .I ve got some
bruises & blueblacks on my legs & my two hands & arms macam sakit & there's a scratch on my left ear .Lucky thing ,I didnt fell on my butt like I did some time ago in the lift which makes me cacat for the next three days cus I cant sit .Hah ah aha hahaa I can be in jackass.

Aving very bad habit of hunching .Becoming hunchy hunchy.

hello fish .ha ha .I want to give u a speech .If its cheesy I dont care ?But like;
thanks eh .For all the things .For being there in the cab .For hugging me like
a sister when I finally breakdown .For shouting at me & make me shut up .For
treating me to a buffet just so I can eat more .For accompanying me at home when
I was sick & sad .For buying me my fav sushis when im sick .For giving me the best 18th
birthday .For making me feel better & calming me down with those msges
which makes me fall asleep .For replacing my chippy necklace when I called u crying
cus I lost it after that big fight with him .For texting me & making my mornings after
my bad nights .For standing up for me when he ditched me .For
tolerating my stubborn self .& seriously,for shouting at me & make me
shut up .because when I look at u at tt point of time ,even when I was fly ,I can
see thru ur eyes that u care ,so much for me.
Lastly ,for alway being the only one I see when I turn around & lastly lastly ,for alway
forgiving me even when ur so very disappointed .I know I've disappoint u twice .When I
said im clean after turning 18 but not & that night :(
Its like ;ur the dopest kickass kid I've ever known .And im ever so grateful to have a friend like
you :)I can`t wait to get on the road with our sparks .I can`t wait for us to grow up & we`ll
go travelling all over the world with the rest of the girls .I love this friend of mine no matter
how screw up u can get sometimes .But during times like that ,u knw i ll be there the most ,whenever & whereever .I will kill all the faggots .K not exactly kill ,but i ll make u feel safe & ...ahh our friendship is made up from alot of fucked up shits that we ve
been thru ,so u know I know.
Me love fish :)I repeat eh ,me love fishy :)

One thing ,after 5 years of knowing u ,I wish I can see my buddy
here stop holding a ciggie stick .Like ,Even if they say smoking is nothing.

Love ,na :)
Sweetnight ,fish :))

p s u alway say u dont wanna make it sound like u ditched me ,but looking at it & me being the
one that found out abt evrythg ,dont u think u just 'ditched' me?

2009-06-21T21:15:00.000+08:00

beach party :)

2009-06-21T14:58:00.002+08:00

Yesterday at work ,I was having my 1st day of mens .The cramp ,sucks like fuck .Fish was like "ummm ,kau ok tak ?tk pena kau cramp gini" .So during break ,I sat beside Isha & my body was aching .Ask isha to massage my shoulder .After a few picit2 ,i remembered smthg.
because u used to massage my body every month so I wont be having bad cramps when my
period comes . That answer fish's question.

& last night ,I was in my room writing in my blue diary when a flying cockroach appear /Fuck.
Fucking big flying cockroach.
I might sound like a baby ,ha ha I ran outside & cry .I went inside again & it fly again & I ran
outside & cry on the floor .My brother is like ,no use uh ask for help .I seriously almost wanted to call u .because u alway kill the flying beetles in my room for me & put me to sleep .Instead ,i took my pillows & bolster & slept outside .& at that point of time I dont know if im crying cus of the cockroach or because I want u there w me.

Hey ,because I still have a heart .Its ok ,I wont tell that bitch anything .Because im just a smallpig ,not a monster .Because u never taught me to do things like that .Because im ana.
Im gonna miss you you miss gonna Im .especially those big hugs ....but I ve got T.I ,nelly ,50cent bow wow & pharell so I ll be fine .As alway .Everybody knows but nobody really knows how to make it work ,or how to ease a hurt .I cant believe u ve found somebody else but I wish u the best ,I guess.

I love amirin & I know he loves ana too.
so this is my goodbye.
goodbye baby.

& im falling sick again .Walaouwei ,instant chicken porridge?

p s to guys going gaga over Megan Fox ,this is for korg .Megan Fox was a male :)

2009-06-18T15:58:00.003+08:00

mama ,please ah keep quite .Its my only off day & u just came back from
work & ur nagging like a chuchutrain .Im so tired already.
Sorry ah if i didnt do the housework & my room's a mess but
come on ah ,im tired really really tired .I dont even have time for
myself yet .Please ah ,keep quite go washup & sleep.

If my responsibility as a daughter is to do all the fucking housework,
then might as well I be a maid .I come home everynight after work
with no food left for me .Every single day .Just dirty dishes for me to
wash .& a full dustbin filled with macDonalds plastic & macspicy boxes &
some macflurry cups .How do u think I feel mama ?I ve been tolerating
so much .I know i ve not been home lately .I work ?I wish ur my sister so I can
tell whats going on but ur not .& I dont have that sister-like bond with u
mama .Sigh ~i cant make u understand ,sorry.

Now Im hearing u coughing in ur room .Are u sick mama ?Please stop
shouting ,ur coughing already .Ok im sorry ,imma complete the housework
now.

me very very physically tired :(
me fucking broke :(
me become skinny :(
me very very mentally tired :(
but
me hair longer :)

what to eat todeh?

2009-06-17T22:13:00.003+08:00

2009-06-16T02:57:00.001+08:00

This was way back last year .Yas Fish & me .Sleepover .Ya I know my belly piercing is below .Actually back then I have 4 belly piercings ,on each side .But I took out all 3 & leave my favourite one alone.

Me tired .Me went to family chalet right after closing yesterday .Me sleep for 3hrs .Me tired.

Tmr is another day.
Another day.

I need my cider & my king robert.
I want my cider & king robert & coke
& lighter & my sleeping pills.
:(:(:(:(:(

Found this.

to rohana:
take a step back, look what u re doing. think whats best for u.
but i swear i ll always be right here if anything happens.
i know im in no position to say anything.
but........ stand up for yourself abit, just abit.
remember those words, u said that to me.
its because of those words im still here.
love u na :)

fishy fishy fishy :(
I dont think I should have said all those words
because I myself have no clue what im doing right now.

Each time Im accompanied with someone ,my heart will be screaming mad
to tell & just tell & let it all out .But my mind ,it stops me from everything.
My mind tells me a different story & I chose to follow what my mind says.

My body breaks down after that 7 days straight of polluting myself w liquors all
alone by myself .Its not emo ,im just tired & fucked up messed up hai ho up
whateve fuck I didnt want anybody with me .I didnt cry I didnt think of anything.
I just drank .with this little kitty beside me .Kinda like running away &
make me just stop thinking for awhile.

to myself:

The worst thing the truth can do?
Is when u finally tell it ,it doesn't
set u free ...But locks u away ,forever.

That's exactly the reason why im still stuck here.

to that boy:
I guess I get it ,that
im not the finest of the best.

2009-06-14T01:11:00.004+08:00

If only running away is a solution.

I break my promise to all those ,if u know what I mean :(

These past few weeks ,I ve been hearing alot of takecareS from a bunch of people ;till it makes me wonder ,what does it ;takecare; really means?

Zuhrie accompanied me yesterday night .Its like I was having the worse of time & he rescued me by being a friend & talk to me.
& I was almost 2hrs late for work.

Bye ,its time to fly high now.
again.

Its like ..........im ruining my life .I know this is not the way but this is the
only way that Im able to think of .Call me stupid I dont care

2009-05-30T00:04:00.003+08:00

this is the part where I go completely crazy because everyone around me is driving me nuts nuts nuts!
Nutsy kuku .Even yas ,hello ?!I was talking to adib sia & u shut me up like that.

FUCK AH GO TO HELL SIAL.

fish :(where u :(:(:(:(:(

2009-05-29T21:02:00.004+08:00

today is a fucked up day .I woke up feeling trashy & its still trashy .Didn't get ta eat the Fudge cake I brought back home from work .Yes ,im finally back .Back to no good I can say .I've been spending spending spending my money on booze .Like yesterday .I have the whole liquor to myself yahu .Don't worry ,im not like those fucknuts drunktards .I give the biggest smile .Haha I sound lika moron but just shut up la .Im having the worst holiday here alert alert .I have nothing to do on off days & I am sick sick maha sick of passing by preety girls perangai like fucked up bitch .Ya ya pretty but bloody arrogant cb .For what sia ,u think u have tha hottest boy beside u ?Fuck u .Fuck u very very much.

Yesterday's closing ,my manager was talking abt the addicts .& today ,im wearing a white ,the addicts tee .HAH HA .& then at the backroom ,I was screaming my lungs out singing hands of blood since its playing on playlist & on full volume .ha ha ha hha .What's wrong with me .Anyway
anyone have lagu fuck the mods by exploited ?I want I want I want mine lost :(

ha ha few secs ago ,I was talking abt those songs .& now im listening to some
D-Devil song .I know .I've become this crazy since ,since I snatched ur bloody phone & found out
u made out with some ITE CLEMENTI TOURISM bitch .not exactly made out ,like made out with those mushy mushhy words via text .cheap cheap thrill huh~ SIGH .Don't let me be the bitch & the next thing u know ,I hoked up with ur fucking awesome fucked up boyfriend ,screw u & ur sorries u bitch & u moron .

Yay Yay Yay .I want some boozing .hmmm ,what's happy eh ....Oh !Got my chippy & letter R :)
Thank you pis bloop bloop~

I feel like I've got 3 person living in me .No ...not that split personality thingy .I don't know how to put it in words .Not mood swings either .& its specifically 3 .yeap .Maybe someday I'll explain.

& for now .............................its time to go put some Vaseline.

2009-05-16T19:03:00.006+08:00

HI MY NAME IS ANNANA &
IM GOING OFF ON MY OWN FOR QUITE SOME TIME.

U CANT BE HAPPY ALL THE TIME RIGHT?

2009-05-14T17:14:00.006+08:00

my kinder egg toy collection :)

My inner voice screams for u .You were once there for me but things are different now .You can't see through my eyes & instantly knew what to do .Im just someone whom u knew u love but not worth the effort anymore .I can't reach out to u ,to tell u how my day went by & tell u that im hungry .Like right now ,u would have nudge me if I don't reply to ur msn within a min but our conv is stagnant ,with 2 words reply .I don't smile from ear to ear anymore .I'm neither a princess nor a little baby to you .I don't feel like one .I've tried so hard ,to be close with u but u just strayed away .What if tt I/C pic of mine tt used to be in ur wallet means alot ?U knw tt little things like that makes me very happy .I'd rather have that then the present u gave me .& our lifeless conversations .sometimes I intentionally make u mad cus at least u'll talk to me with abit more energy .I have nothing to say cus I know u won't know how to understand me now.

I don't need to hear the 3 letter words from u everyday .I'd like

to be treated like it.

Now that assessment's over ,I'll have all the time in the world to talk to myself & be like an

emo m`fucker.

Telur masin = FingerLickin` gudd :)I'm still dead beat ,I slept for almost 6hr at

lounge even though I'm surrounded by one the THZA most massive laughters

i've ever heard .continuously sumore!

some fun game they played.

& hoping by the time I wake up ,I could fetch the boy from sch then meet fish

but i didnt get any respond.

I cancelled plan to RiverIsland .Im sorry ,I was really in a i-can-cry-any-time mood .plus

I don't want u to shoik sendiri mcm crazyfrog woman over the apparels there

with me feeling like shit .I also want to sekaki!

next week ,promise :)

fucking sleepy.

2009-05-12T20:02:00.003+08:00

I've cut ,dyed my hair .Im frustrated that the stupid hairdresser didn't get me when I

said "I'm keeping my fringe just layer it a little" :(

she go & cut it short.

I DONT WANT BANGS ANYMORE LA.

I just spent $45.95 on toiletries :( My shampoo my toner my body wash my facial my makeup remover & blablabla .Sedih saya .This means goodbye fairwell to RiverIsland .I see u next month.

Tmr is 3D - 1= 2D.

So I wanna describe today.

Today is my 3D assessment .Set-up my station .Shared cloth with fishh as mine was pathetic .Dad sent me to school .ERP cheap ,$0.50 only ,no idea why .I was struggling

with my 2 sculpture crossing the road & I had troubling pressing the lift button.

It was better than last sem cus time was on my side .But I feel like killing Alvin ,my 3d

lecturer because he was still firing my ceramic & it was not ready so I havta make do

with what I have .Cb ah I already did the rough sketches & my final product was a

fucking sickening tabung .Not even related to my research sial .If I get a 'C' ,i will be so devastated .Fuck him for not informing us beforehand abt the

critic session .I was already in my house sia ,last minute somemore.

Briefing never tell .The time when assessment for 3D was hand out ,never tell .During

set-up before 9am ,never tell .Suddenly got to knw there's critic session .Cb or bastard.

Fucking asshole.

If this 3D is something I did unwillingly & effortlessly ,I wouldn't be this mad.

Oh ya ,fuck la.

2009-05-12T02:36:00.003+08:00

Im done with 3d .& somehow ,Relaxing when I should be doing 42 watercolour
sketches.= .Well ,for this week ,7 days ,a quarter of a month ,im just breathing to pass
the time.

Its difficult finding friends when ur not a kid .Im just hoping that my friends ,we don't have to part because its gonna be hard moving forward .I've known u throughout highschool & they say people change every 5 years .If ever we could compromise ,or u could at least see what u've become .I can't change a person but hey friend ,I miss miss the gawky old u.

I was craving to let go just abit cus I've never been this hectic ,in terms of sch that is .So I drag amirin & since im 18 ,obviously ,u guys should know what im gonna do .& guess what ,I wasted the whole of it .My tummy couldn't take it I don't know why .Even when its with lemontea & redbull .I was frustrated ,no .disturbed .why why why .I forced myself to vomit even though it was nothing cus I just don't feel good really .U knw ,when u put ur index finger down ur throat & wiggle it until u feel like puking .Did that countless times & it only work twice .Some time later ,I think I got it .I've not eaten the essential RICE for 5 days ?Right .That's a record!
Serve me right for wasting my money on that babi .Should have save it for smthg much more
worthy it ...like .....KINDER EGGIES!!

Well ,for friends ,who knew who I am before 29April this year ,don't worry .Im clean 18 bee .Kays .Since im a nonsmoker ,alcohol is another thing for me to stay away not till im 22 ?Estimated ,not plan .Its true .Im capable of that .I'll rather say something like this which i know im capable of then saying i ll-stop-in-week thingy & don't mean it .End of the day ,I figured it out myself.

Love & Hate.
are 2 faces to the same coin. a thin line separates them.. intense emotions of dislike can turn into the most passionate love if given a chance to blossom, and the corniest of love stories can turn into the fiercest war..

to forgive is divine they say.. and i truly agree. for so many ppl loved and went separate ways.. yet so very few didnt hold a grudge towards the one who said goodbye.

it takes courage to realize that things wont work, and maturity to accept the fact, and wisdom to let it go. and thats what separates men from the boys.

Surprise surprise~
I thought my birthday presents ended long ago.
But thanks for the chip's softy /bed toy .I'll go to bed with it today promise :)
& it match very cutely with my chippy necklace.
Whats great it that both are from 2 people I sayang mary mary much!
& Ziella's treating me SeoulGarden on friday ,last day of school :) can't wait.

Pis(tol) ,RiverIsland date with me !& babi kau selitkan gamba special
pat mirror aku =,=anjat gegerl.

Goodnight & goodluck for FineArts Year 1 students.including me.

2009-05-11T01:35:00.004+08:00

U're like a sugar ball :)

Take care Aini .I ve heard .I can't visit u cus Im totally caught up with assessments.
It's funny though .hehe.

Today I was forced to go to my cousin's wedding .

2009-05-08T23:44:00.004+08:00

fish accompanied me at home after her class .I painted & she did her report

while we catch up with each other.

I wanted to go to RiverIsland really really badly but I forced myself really really
badly to stay home & paint & I did =D

Done like 70% of my watercolour.

Lets move on to 2d.

2009-05-08T20:04:00.002+08:00

HURAYY .Mas Selamat have been arrested.

Advantage of staying at home for today .Get to watch

the news!

Mas Selamat was caught at Skudai 25km from Jb.

h ah ah a .All these while ,I've never met him when I go Skudai.

OK SO MY MAIN POINT/CONCLUSION IS:

Mas Selamat can't and failed to outsmart Micheal Scofield.

yes ah .Scofield still genius =)

& he was caught alone I think ,so he don't have a supportive gf like Sarah.

BUT WAIT!

what if what if ,he have a plan tt include him being arrested.

ahahh

2009-05-08T17:37:00.003+08:00

nurfarhhana abdullah in the house !
i cAught nana doing something while painting . (the bra)

she said si bai ! i said pffftt .

okay bye i dont blog anymore .

xoxo f

2009-05-08T00:31:00.004+08:00

WAH .I WAS TRYING TO BE A PEST BUSTER & I THINK I WAS TOO
NERVOUS THAT ITS GONNA CHASE ME CUS I HOLD THE
SHEILDTOX THE OPPOSITE WAY .I PRESSED SO HARD BUT IT SPRAYED
ON MY INDEX FINGER .SIGH.BUT I DID MANAGED TO
SUFFOCATE IT W THE TOXIC GAS BEFORE IT
HIDES BELOW THE FRIDGE SO I THINK ITS DYING.

now my sheildtox is empty & I'm gonna leave a note on the dining table before
going to bed.

"I killed a cockroach in the kitchen .If u see it pls throw for me :)"

because they knew I will never kill one alone.
MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!

2009-05-07T23:41:00.004+08:00

passerby passerby sitting on a tree.
h a t e t a g i n g!

huhu ~ok chill people ,im still cooler than passerby .ha ~But like how come azie & ika knew abt it ?ha ha.

2 sleepless nights completing 2 f.y.p Nw tt I have time to rest ,I can't .I'm too tired ,I can't eat & sleep well .Maybe I need to go shopping at RiverIsland.
ha ha ha perangai paris hilton ah.

I'm to paint for my f.y.p watercolour but I gave up .I googled floats and get pictures of stupid people floating .I want the floats what malay called 'boya' .Forget it

Baek or what !I found the boya already.
ha ha .Guess what I google ."in case of emergency floats"
ha ha ha ha h ah a.

"Ju ,tanye aku mcm mane aku buat filter ni!!!!"
"Wow !mcm mane kau buat filter tu ana?*w xtion smgt facial xpression*
"Aku google!"
*Ju staring like rastaman*

One of the days ,my younger bruthe played a prank on my big bruthe .He put a rubber cockroach on harun's hand while he was sleeping .Ha ha .Harun scream like nenek kebayan.
Then ,he did it on me too .He placed the rubber cockroach in front of my bedroom door .But ,I was smart .I knew it was a fake one because its not shiny .but being me ,I open my bedroom door & push the cockroach away using a paper roll .ha ha ~I was still scared evntho it was fake .Bimbo problem.

I want to layer my hair .It is as bushy as mr.bush washing(ton)machine .Bimbo talk again.

Anyway ,My hp is spoilt .u can still msg me & if i reply means some kind soul lend me their spare hp.

& faris ,don't worry ah ,I won't run with ur money ah.

2009-05-06T05:22:00.002+08:00

I found this while browsing thru my old blog .This was the night before he left for

Bali.

I told him I wanted MacSpicy. He bought me MacSpicy at 1am.

Told him im cravin 4 cheseprata. He emptied his pocket & left e coins on my dressingtable 4 my cheseprata.

I told him im cashless. He place the Chocobaby for my snack cus he knew I like it.

I told him im gonna miss him. He gave his singlet with my favourite smell of his.

He puts me to sleep & rest beside me ,under my blanket.He gave me the biggest hug & the slowest kiss.

& he left me 2.30am in the morning.

& he left me for Bali 6am in the morning.

He was & is my boy.

2009-05-04T01:28:00.011+08:00

Oh my god .dhouby gaut.

I just got a hate-tag.

sigh SIGH.

issues people ...issues.

Stepcute .that is sooooooooooooooooo zaman no SCV.

Anyhoo ,dont worry korg ,passerby having period.

I was alone today on a Sunday ,all day .When my family got back frm bukit batok ,I received another birthday present !Another swatch watch from my fav aunt .YAHU BAHU !ha ha .Im craving for chicken cream pasta very very much :(

I didnt eat the whole day & amirin didnt wanna accompany me down to mac for

supper .boohoo .he is a sleepy.

Yes ,things are getting better .U know ,u might not be the worst person i've ever met ,but u did the most horrible thing ever .Knowing u ,didnt expected tt.

Whatever it is ,i wont leave u feeling like what i used to make u feel .ilove u.

HOW TO COOK MAGGIE WITH DSLR.

(dslr hang by the neck-,-)

Wah ,im using a brand new pan mum just bought!So...boil some water.

As u can see im using a pan not a bowl-like pan(the one u use if ur cooking smtg soupy) because its brand new dammit!ha h ah aha.I wanna strip off its virginity~

Alright ,when u see bubbles ,its boiling already .ha ha ha.

Walahh as u can see ,the maggie 'keras' .In other words ,still hard. because it is still the boring rectangle shape.

see ,the maggie soften ,& spread all over .Yeah so u sprinkle the currypowder . (Usually I sprinkle the pwder first before the maggie but I dont know why I got mixed up today ,think its due to the EGGcitement)

WHILE waiting for the curry+maggie to mix well ,u can do a big cup of fruitpunch!

So ....pour just a little tiny winy of the concentrated syrup.like THAT!

take some ice cubes from the ice maker ..WOOOO!! *putcha hands up* ice means chilly .Chilly is good for Singapore weather .S`pore like Sahara desert u know .everyone sweats everywhere .Sweat like pigs.
TARAAA !HomeMade BIG GULP fruitpunch .haiyak.

Ok people ,dont forget abt the maggie !ha ha .now tt its good ,u can add an EGG !makes the dish more...creamy?yeahk!

oh...sidetrack ;while searching for the egg...I found.....

KINDARR EGG !ha ha .so 2 stupid eggs vs my kinder egg .see my kinder ,like gangsta slash hustla ~So fierce looking up .cute uh this picture!

& then if u like spice ,can add chilly padi !I dont know where mum keeps it so I just use the big chilli .(can u see my purple nails .hee~fyi)

wash chilli ,sliced into 3 ,throw inside !See !adds colour to the dish.

stirr ...stirr...stirr..

meanwhile ,I can refill my icemaker thingy .

so that mum wont scream at me!SAVE THE SCREAMING MUM ,IVE DONE MY JOB.

END OF HOW TO COOK A MAGGIE W DSLR
..........
What I do before going to sleep

Aha !Spotted !!empty used mugs left unattended..must pick up ..put inside sink..

Spotted again !empty mugs & bottle left unattended .Take & throw inside sink.
oh no ,behind the scene dslr lense cover spotted !ha ha ha ha ha.

Tadaa !More dirty used stuffs .Everynight I have to pick those unattended stuffs
& wash it so the sink is clean in the morning for mummy to chop ingredients & cook for us :)
thats the least I can do since ive been buzy w schwork.

Then ,I will transfer the water content in the kettle to the blue thingy there !So everyone
can have clean ,germ-free plain water!YAHU.

& I will refill the kettle with tap water which is full of chlorine & germs.

Im talking as if its from JB's tap water.

& I will boil it !So that there will be more water to be refill for tmr!YAHU!
& i havta wait till it boils =,=
the kettle is cute .Because it will give out this whistling sound when it starts to boil.

END OF WHAT I NEED TO DO BEFORE GOING TO BED EVERYDAY

& now....lets enjoy the feast !ha ha ,ya I know I never transfer
the maggie to a proper bowl .Thats how unruly & cantbebothered I can get

& i dont like to use metal spoon for soup.

Ive nver felt this happy in awhile so I shud enjoy this moment =D

2009-05-02T21:22:00.016+08:00

HAPPY EGG-TEEN(18)TH BIRTHDAY

TO ANNANA :)

29thApril2009.
one of the coolest birthday.
Mum&Dad remembered my day.
Got a conference call from min & zuhrie :)
Birthday wishes saved safely in a Folder.

Ziella gave my first present (painttube!) & phonecall.

Nafa clans did a little surprise :):):):):)

these are the candles from my polar's b`day cake :D

...

Fish was the sweet grape =D ,
She did this 18 presents for my 18th birthday.

Coolest thing abt being 18 ,I gotta ride on

OLD SKUL TRISHAW!!

from bugis all the way to far east.

NO road rules.
& trishaw uncle corner maut!

Uncle ,u should be happy bcause u got hold of a dslr to take our pic !haha.

b`day girl w uncle trishaw =D

but................the most kental thing .One of those presents.....she forgot abt da...PRICETAG!

HA ha .it was bloody cute .oh its a bodyshop soap.

I told her I have a collection of bodyshop soaps ,tts y.

...

Dad & youngest brother bought me this....

TOMATO SOFT TOY!!

he hehe hee .they wrap it up & place it right in the middle of

my bed =D

I got a cake from family too :D ,although it didnt taste tt nice.
still loved it though.

the sweet grape :)

Birthday girl beside fern plant.
this was actually the kickass lepak trishaw i wanted to ride on at first bt the apek when missing.

Fish bring me to Ramen ten & it means alot

because knowing fish ,she hate sushis & raw food.
Thza....present PEEK-A-BOO.

I haveta describe one of e present .A packet of......

RUBBER DUCKIES!!

A mother ducky w 3 ducklings.

"next time if kau mara ,kau picit picit je itik ni ha ha"-fish.

I've once told her abt having smthg to picit if im very very angry.

and fish is the shit... nafa fish. not that starbucks chic. she hot but im like hawterrrerr... fo sho
(its from this wacky dude we sang 'I need a Miracle' & some Cascada songs in sculpture class .Very obsessed w minah&matrep world ,not tt his one)

She printed some of our pictures....

And I love this picture most !See our litle necklaces =D :) :D

brought to you by ,BabyG & Swatch & a narly ring.ha ha.

BECAK RIDE.

our trishaw go against the pedestrians!take that!

Oh no !Vehicles !Wanna crash w our trishaw!!!

"NO WORRIES~me hero!"-uncle trishaw.

alarmak baboon !traffic jammmmmm...

thru istana park

he he .Advantage abt being a trishaw......

NO ERP DURIN PEAK HOUR!!!!

yahu!

END of wonderful trishaw JOURNEEEH!

to ziella.

thank you .You should know why :)

Jesicca's Partayyyyyy.

Friends ,thanks for making my 18th birthday kickass.

Fish !U made my 18th birthday triple kickass.

thanks for the time & the little yellow letter.

watch out for 9August .....its ur turn.

So by looking at some of the things

like my new soap ,my birthday wrapper ,my new paint ,the purple balloon im holding abv,

u shud know that purple is me.

I miss the presence of ayu & kin in school.

Oh ,I got 2 Kinder Eggies from ziella&fish.

Wahh piang ,18yrs old ,still get kinder eggs.

SO WHAT .nice ah the chocolate.

2009-04-28T01:11:00.007+08:00

"The deepest hole" .I love how u can easily relate to this artwork ,Done by me :))

I tell u ,if u carry on with that fucking revengeful i-wanna-make-u-jealous kinda thing ,u're not even gonna make it halfway thru ur life .Because ur heart is as black as charcoal .THICK THICK ego babi shit ,immature & forever an attention-seeker .I don't like to dislike a person but in ur case ,its an exception.

I have to wait till tmr to weewee .I wanted to but too bad I saw a cockroach & hop out of the toilet like an aladin+crab .Today started out so sour ,I almost cried in class early morning .Yet again ,angry child .But things got better after that .Friends alway make me smile :)Thank u my friends.

Hehhs ,according to the time now ,its 1.41am .On a tuesday .So tmr's date is 29April2009.
he he ,i forgot uh .what day it is tmr =D

2009-04-26T21:36:00.003+08:00

Secondary 4 (me pig)

Because I miss being a kid .A kid waking up at 6.45am every morning on weekdays ,wearing a bagpack ,taking bus 60 & hoping not to be late .Now ,here I am ,17 going 18 in 3 more days with big responsibilities & I am not ready .To take a step forward to being a young adult .I don't want to go anywhere further than this .I ve learn too much things .I ve had too much 'beentheredonethat' kinda thing.

I have 3 draft saved already .I know if i post it ,it will ruin some things that can be make do .I don't know .These past 4 days ,I ve been an angry child .So angry so so angry ,fish heard how I cried like a little kid over the phone .How she saw me in my most ridiculous character at Market Place .I'm too preoccupied it made me like this ..Its more to angry then frustrated .There's so much angst in me ,I don't even know who I am.

Im a tauran & according to my horoscope ,not that it matters but somehow is true ,we don't like changes .I don't like changes when I like something .Take example my vanilla scent &my green contacts & my love for sex bands .Well ,I dont know how to put it here in a nice manner ah .its gruesomely babi if I let it all out.

2009-04-22T07:53:00.002+08:00

I give up .I failed to do the 1000word essay .I know 'giving up' is not me ,but when it comes to words & philosophical & literature-like stuffs ,i will procrastinate till the very last minute .I cant do that kinda stuff .I KNOW I SUCK AH BECAUSE IT SEEMS LIKE I NEVER TRY .I did ,at the very last moment & then realise tt who in the world ,esp someone like me (myhighschfriendsshudknow) would complete a 1000word in less than 8hrs .I can ah ,

but it ll be full of unnecessary sentences & info & half of it dont make sense .Ziella would prolly be rolling on the floor laughing & I end up getting a huge capital letter 'F' .So its the same uh .I feel so inferior by my friends .SIGHsighSIGH.

I can stop bragging now and warm up my fritata or I can continue blogging.

ARGH cb sia sia sia sia sia sia sia sia sia sia sia sia .babi.

im scared of Yr 2 & Yr 3 ;no its not abt the hectic schedule ,its abt the future essays :(

Gossip girl ,help me?

2009-04-21T00:02:00.002+08:00

I just saw an ugly fashionista~
no ,not only face .including the hair ,body ,clothes & the way he carries himself ....*slaps forehead* .He looks more likza fucking nutella bimbo fuck.

its the 20th of April .9 more days till lalala 18 .pre-legal ,i say .I cant wait .Holiday coming in a few weeks .But on the down side ,assessments/assignments are slam right in front of my face .Its a nightmare & im pretty scared...............chick en....

Min im gonna come over to your place on wed & get my digital art done .U gotta help me seriously .I know u & photoshop are bestfriends since highsch.

Goodbye people.
I ve been so occupied lately & I just dont find the
need to tell here .Pictures ?ha ha .taktau~

2009-04-13T16:57:00.007+08:00

school .school .school .12 hrs of school on monday .Ritter sport & murtabak filled me tummy.

Thank you very much .For all the discrimination I got from being a friend .Sigh ~Life is nver fair .When im trying to do something good ,people goddamn mistook it .Polluted negative thinking minds .sigh sigh sigh .But im still here .I dont give a fuck .Dont worry ,I ll be there ,no matter how shitty it gets .Fuck what people thinks ah .They dont have a bloody clue of what our friendship is made off .I guess the past will alway linger .Its so hard to even give a chance & turn over a fresh page for a fresh start & just fucking bloody burn the thousand pages before.

Like back then ,dad used to accuse me of smoking.
when ciggie butt never touch my lips before.
dammit ah ah ah.

Ugh.

Melodramatic fools ,neurotic to the brains no doubt about it.

& yes .I thought u said u believe in me .That im special in a million ways .But im halfway there & u already give up on me .You re unsure of what u used to believe .Im not even there yet & I know i can never blame anyone for whatever things I do .But ,to have shared all the things in the world with u & a phonecall attached w a story that I was dying to tell u & as eager as hell to listen to some comforting words that would make me feel a whole lot better ,turns out so numb .Like if i can i would just backspaced the fucknut conversation .Maybe u dont know me just yet .Maybe its easier to look at the negatives .There s no point to even prove to anyone but myself because people now are so fucking brainwashed & judgemental & typically naive .Where are the rare breeds?

but because i ve promise to particularly u,
i ll show u ,what im made of.
im much more tougher ,im one of the rare breeds.

Ok breath in & out.
breath in & out annana.

Thanks to salvador dali & resse for making history ppt interesting & ju for the murtabak & just listening to me & ziella for the mac dinner treat & dad for fetching me home & amirin for the eyemo.
I love & I care .I get mad .I still love & I care ;for everyone of u & u guys shud know who :))

I need an ice cream treat & a big
hug from a total stranger.
because strangers are disfunctional beings.

2009-04-10T21:25:00.003+08:00

Adakah perasaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta?

2009-04-06T23:22:00.002+08:00

snort snort.
flame flame.

nice meeting u gordon.

Ur giving me a headache.

2009-04-06T16:08:00.003+08:00

Today is monday.

No longer a brunette.

Red head is sad because she is penniless.

Close ur eyes & count to ten so John Legend will rescue u red head.

John Legend is not that handsome which makes him very mr. handsome.

ps ;collecting & not cutting fringe .TRYing.

2009-04-05T23:29:00.006+08:00

This is fish .Or fishy .Farhana but I call her fish 98.7% of

the time.

The story goes like this.

As u can see ,Chip is my nick at work .& its because of fish I got e name .I dont know why

they cant pronounce a name as simple as 'na' .(2 letter word) .I ve got 2 options.

fish & chip .Fillet o fish .OF COURSE I WONT CHOOSE FILLET.

oh ,anywees .Fish is one of the greatest friends I ve ever had in my entire life .We both have been thru so much ,nobody knows .I can fairly say ,she s my everything .Not that im a lessy or what ,we do go gaga over hotties & she knows my type of guy :) Apart from being my fellow worker or shud I say colleague ,she is also my latenight friend .wth?ha ha.

So im still talking abt her .Few days back ,she place this necklace ard my neck .(below) & said its part of my birthday surprise .She got the Dale ,I got the Chip .I smiled .very delightly .I kept looking at my new chippy .& I noticed somethg .he he ,which was very cute !Chip got the same teeth as me .my bunny teeth !he he .(see below again) .oh it took place at work .We were workin` on e same shift.

& today .I was browsing thru my pictures & I came across this picture .& it really reminds me of my chip !he he h eh ehe .See my bunny teeth & chip s bunny teeth !cute eh.

Thankyou

& I love u fishy.

xoxo C

2009-04-02T21:03:00.002+08:00

My week have almost been fully granted.
Just the way I want it :)
I hop it ll end like last week.
Cus last week awe-awe-awesome.

The day after jess party was work & sunday
was jemputan w family @ Jb.
& the next day which is a monday ,was Sentosa w my starbuck family :)
Tuesday was Vivo after sch ,w kin's friends ,which was great ,only the
busride home sucks ,fucking long. ride.
wednesday was my day w Ziella ,I did 4 extensions & get out nails done.
& I met up w amirin ,thanks for all the food :)Thank you very much.
Drop by his house to meet my IKA & his family !she still fucking cute ;D

& Today ,is the most boring day of the week !I went straight home.

Its been very hard for me ,especially in school .I have 27 more days to go .Just 27 more days
till I have to stop .I wana be a clean 18yr old .I ve been eating like crazy & i get so
restless easily ,it kills me .& I know ,its not gonna stop after the eating part .Theres more to come .Sometimes in between lesson ,I feel like crying .Its not painful,
it just makes me weak ,n smile-less .Fuck.

& TODAY MARKS THE BIRTHDAY OF MY BESTEST GIRL.
MASS MASS MASS :))))):)))Dear mass ,I love & miss u.
Im gonna meet u very very soon .I miss u i miss u.
happy birthday & smille ahey.

Im bloggin like a boring blogger.

2009-03-29T02:45:00.006+08:00

3 bungalows ,chefs all over.
ultra massive awesome foodspread.
guitar hero ,3 DJs ,smokemachine.
dancefloor ,cool geeks.

absolute ,abs peach ,chivas ,baileys ,carlsberg.
HANGOVER @ WORK.

the party speaks for itself.
the only frustating thing was when
they all stop me from drinking more.
& thanks to the boys for caring.

happy 18thbirthday jess`!Thanks for the
geeky day :)May u be bless w a good
life ahead.

& its 29thMarch`09.
kit's birthday today.
A month before my birthday.
& my ex-bestfriend's birthday.

Coffee presentation day was ay ok.
Nothing great for me ,but I just love
how the night ended :)

Now ..lets save electricity.
I did my part & fell asleep.

2009-03-25T23:10:00.002+08:00

well ,lets chill.
chill and eat sotong hitam.
and newyork cheesecake and ice water.

"Without" is the non existence of "existence" in one s conscious mind.

Im forcing myself to draw.
so do not disturb ,part 2.

Perhaps u have not noticed ,or maybe u have.
but things may not be as u have imagined..

2009-03-24T00:15:00.003+08:00

LIFE SHOULD BEGIN WITH THE LETTER 'B'.
LIFE IS A FUCKING BITCH ;fyi

2009-03-20T23:47:00.003+08:00

sigh .For the first time in 2009 ,I feel like vomitting every second .I ve been eating non-stop since 8am .My throat is being a fucking bitch .Apart from the sickness ,I dont feel good inside .I really really have so many things up here in my brain .Why cant things just go away ?If I can have one wish ,I wish im at Keppel Bay alone ,to just sit & stare & have countless scoops of ice cream.

& the stupidest thing is ,I bought my usual milk early morning when I know my throat cant take it.

vomit.

muntah.

vomit.

As if im pregnant .Cb.

& im cashless already.

I need a big hug.

& a sweet treat .cookies?

I just have 2 slices of watermelon.

my first watermelon in 2009.haha.

hmmmm ,maggie sounds nice.

ok quit eating for today~

You ,dont talk to me.

2009-03-19T22:52:00.003+08:00

I miss my girls.
& it was so fun like clean fun .Just to spend & end the day with them.

Im watching sweet sixteen right now & i think tt the best parties are only available
in Miami .& the girls are all oh so sexy & pretty & its fucking happening.
wee ~I wanna go I wanna go .ha ha ,miami ,my dream honeymoon destination.
u guys shud knw by now.

mummy didnt cook today ,Im starving .So I cook some maggie & im still starving because maggie dont make u full .It makes u hungry like just as hungry as how u felt before u have
the maggie itself .ha hA ,In other words ,maggie dont work on hungry people.
cb ,im talking alot again.

bye peeps ,essay killing me.

p.s I might be having sore throat.

2009-03-17T22:45:00.006+08:00

It was my first time trying out Left 4 Dead .& it rocks man !ha ha ha .Fucking fun.
& giggling with ziella on the phone for 19mins non-stop made me so tired like shit.
Like right now ?Tmr is my store meeting .For the upcoming coffee presentation.
Im in charge of the invitation & nothing else .I dont want to get too involve.

Jess party will be coming soon .Im excited .But like ,the geek theme ?I have no idea
how to pull it off .The specs will do the trick but like ,I dont wana wear spec.
What s a party with specs ?Gonna be stepped on .But for the birthday girl ,maybe I will.

I met fish before she start her shift yest .ha ha .I kept saying we re screwed we re screwed.
we re fucked up .ha ha ha ha ha .U guys wont know la .She went to work & I went stoning for an hour half at the roadside ,alone .Calm atmosphere yet disturbing enough inside .It felt empty .I was tryna think of somethng but half the time ,my mind s not working .I wanted to have kinder egg & forget abt everythg at tt point of time but saint picked me up ,erasing the word "alone/empty" for like 30mins ?He was nice enough to send me back & talk but I dont think it work.
I have so much inside yet I cant let out a single thing .& the easiest thing was to say im fine & talk things tts on the surface already .Nothing too deep ,nothing too little.

Things like this makes me very tired & sloppy .I really dont know whats wrong.
Question marks twirling ard my head .I don t know whats right & wrong.
Im preety fucked up .I look like a straight up junkie .Im tryna be everyone's shoulder
to lean on when I myself needed a fucking good one .Much of a giver than a taker.
I put people s problems first before mine .You know ,all these things im doing ,doesnt make
sense .At all .But like ,I guess this is the part where Im gonna mess up almost everythg &
then there will be just this one day when I finally pops back .ha ha so yeah im in for what life
have to offer.

Like now ,I am eating MacSpicy w VEGETABLES (infocheck ;me no like veggies) & I wonder why my burger have this clorine aftertaste .Like the clorine in swimming pool .Or is it just my throat being badly polluted by ....?Or maybe some bitchy McD person tryna poison me?
Or im just plain making it up.

Im talking alot right now.
yeah what im doing now .talking mutely .ha ha ,its better.
because u can alway backspace the part u dont like .How terrific will it be if I can backspace life .backspace parts tt I wish didnt happen .Make my life super perfect.
ha ha ha hh ah ah a .Take example ,backspace the part when I cut my hair short.

Cb i need to finish up my maccy spicy & apple & peach tea.
before its too late.
too late =,=Since when mum banned me from keeping my food inside
the fridge.
So I am...
literally dumb.
ugh.
& getting really slow in the brain.

fuck u mary mary much~

2009-03-17T01:39:00.002+08:00

Thing is ,I really wana blog ,but I dont know what to blog about .Tmr is drawing class.
Its a harmless lesson ,unlike today .Total killer .Im awfully bloated .Mee kuah & then bed ,sounds heavy aint it .I need a bloody wake up call tmr @ 7 .Anyone willing ?Being a pig is not fun .Same old excuses for being slightly late ,late ,very late ,fucking late or might-as-well-absent late.

Im gona go text someone & then off to bed.
see ya.

2009-03-16T14:17:00.003+08:00

When im painting ,it totally shuts me from reality .Drown by my playlist .I love painting .And I love being that I am ,a messy painter .It gives me a sense of satisfaction .My hands they move around ,filling all the white spaces .And I can call it done & continue with another piece ,not a slight feeling of tiredness .I am not as creative as people thought I am but when I see an idea ,my creative cells spread like crazy & I make it work .Painting keeps me going .There's this point of life when I literally hated my dad so much ,I tried writing scribbling & blabla .It got into a pile of notes ,still kept ,untouch .but I got tired of it cause writing is never my thing .I started painting on my walls ,I was in love w fairytales & pixies then .So I did this white pony & considering the timeline I took ,it was one of my best .I have to stop when my grandad said that painting all these aint a good thing.

So I still am ,a messy painter .Fabulously messy .I ll be so worked up ,I look like a gangster painting .Crossed legged ,one leg on another chair ,so-not-a-girl ,leaning against the wall ,hunching like a junkie .Minding my business .Isle infront or a board on my lap .I love it .& ears plugged .I cant paint & talk ,it wont work .Cause I ll paint what I know ,not what I see .& the outcome=disgusting.

I too ,secretly ,have a thing for sewing .Remember the first bikini i wore ,the pink one .I did it myself & the 2nd one ?did it myself too & some red dress i made .Yeah ,I know ,im a total dummy & have zero experience in fashion design ,but it interest me ,secretly .I dont know ,just somewhere inside of me ,a little passion for it but it never wana come out .I just dont feel the need to learn fashion design right now .Maybe in `10 yrs time?

I am an octupus with more than 8 tenticles .I know I can do so much .Proudly saying that I have magical hands .& that is the greatest gift God have ever created out of me .If I lost my hands ,my life is preety much over.

2009-03-16T01:14:00.002+08:00

im in love with yuna.
very very much in love.

im in love with deeper
conversation.

I want a black acoustic.
fuck.
my little cousin took it.
& im nver getting it back.

2009-03-15T03:37:00.008+08:00

why are u doing this to me.

If I could turn back time.
Just once.
It ll be that time when I sat
with u on the beach.
Sands on our butts.
& I revealed smthg tt I knew
was a mistake.
A fucking big Mistake.

I cant probably change things now.
Now tt its blown out of proportion.
& there s nothing in this chaotic mind of mine

can I do to help.
Im stuck in between my braincells.

Dear fish,

because I care so much

that im still finding a way.

to make it all go away.

To make it better.

Im still finding a way.

Stay with me ;just a little more.

im still the statue I was talking about.
Everythings gonna be fine.

love;na.

p.s philosophical bloggers make my head dizzy.

& to u.

for being there ,whenever & wherever I needed u.

maybe im just too difficult?

2009-03-15T02:40:00.002+08:00

If im stupid.
to do this thing.
Then don't blame me.

No saint ,im sorry.

2009-03-14T00:40:00.004+08:00

I paint & completed 2 assignments today .Its a relieve since painting requires alot of time.
I wanted to paint my watercolour landscape but
seems like my body s gonna trip if i do just that ,so I stop.
I am a gorilla today .I ate 2 big servings of rice.
first w sweet sour fish ,second w chicken cutlet.
mama say "ish ,kau tak bace bismillah ke mkn"

hehe .opsy i gotta poopsy.

Tomo gona be work .Hais.
hais .I have to savour one of the last
moment with my bigsplash family.
I swear this is the saddest thing tt
could ever happen.
BL is not gonna be BL anymore ,im sure.
ahhh fuck .I hate it sia.
cb cb cb cb cb cb cb.
it ll come crashing down.
sooner ,very soon.

I want to sleep.
sleepy peepy.

2009-03-13T02:35:00.002+08:00

I need to get away from this island fast.
the problems are neverending.
& im nver gonna be able to solve it.

I need a break.
from everything.
Just once.
Give me a miracle.
Just once.
I need to knw that they are fine.
The people i love.
Every single one of them.

Thats all I ever wish for right now.

2009-03-11T11:16:00.004+08:00

hello .Im so gonna die when school reopen.

dammit ~I hate the piled up assignments.

I own this Keppel Bay .Fucking nicest shit ever.

Bonine & cylde.

cept tt ;we rock more.

Not fair ,mum's going to the truespa facial & she didnt book for me :(

Boohoo ,I wana go .Mum said I can go this sunday but alone.

WAH piang ;alone eh .Imagine my face.

I smell bad.

I am a pig.

I doze off w/o changin my clothes yest.

w/o washing my face.

Eew ,I am a pig.

My kaminomoto bottle is empty.

I need it so bad.

& now mum joins in the kaminomoto gang.

ha ha.

Oh no ,I ran out out Dove body wash.

& my facial wash is running low.

Alamak ,everytime I got my pay I have

to fork out money for my shampoos & conditioner &

facial wash & body wash & deodorant & concession & now bill &

blablabla.

boring uh like that every month.

Fucking sleepy.

fucking cb sleepy peepy.

Having a store meeting this evening .Cant wait.

There's siput sedut ,chilli crabs ,lala ,prawns & so much more!

:):):):):)

fuck assignments.

2009-03-09T23:02:00.002+08:00

The weather's perfect.
I have lots to do.
Lots & lots.

xoxo
annana.

2009-03-08T23:11:00.004+08:00

finally i've got the time to blog .That ,is also because I give a miss to zuhris's little bruther party.
I just got back from a short trip to Jb .A day spent w mum .Real nice~

Howwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww the hell am I doing?

buzy with life .I guess im getting back my carefree life.
work is not like work .Its like love .Like family .They're my homies.
School & me have been escalating .ha ha ~I just dont find it interesting to be
doing schh work right now .& I miss my slamdougs so much ,i ve not
meet them since last monday.
Oh don't worry ,we're gonna spend like 3 yrs together :))They're the best.
I just need these 2 weeks to catch up w peoples.

excitements ,temptations ,question marks ,everything.
the wild side of me is coming .I really feel like the best part of my life is just starting.
Oh yes ,my life is definitely back.

27th will be jess's birthday party .Its gonna be fucking sick man ~yeah hah.
watch out u rich bitch ;imma rock u down.
hah aha hah aaa .why am i so evil ,suddenly?

feel like i ve lost touch of blogging.
or am I too tired.
loving life as it is :))

"we came we saw we bump now lets get out."

"Sometime ,things have to get worst before it gets better"

2009-03-06T12:58:00.001+08:00

fucking need a kneadable eraser.

2009-02-27T00:21:00.003+08:00

I had a blast last friday.
Our mission were to have that icecream tt saint was talking abt.
Met saint & hakim even before class ends.
We had Ikan pari at adams rd for dinner (Saint's treat)
We had Ice creams across adams rd for dessert (Hakim's treat)
I had sushisalmon & 3 bottles of plain water w flavors (my treat)
We chillax in between big houses ,beside a big longkang & infront of
huge labour dogs.

Saint & me were like drunken kids.
Hakim's our daddy.

Back to store ,hakim did his bike
saint accompanied him ,I curled into a ball on the sofa.
then I went outside to see what they;re doing.
saw saint sitting & sleeping.
Pulled him in store & we slept on the 4 sofas.
2 each .ha ha ha .laying down .Our sugar level
running low.
Wake up once they're done w closing.

Khuss (shift manager)
treated us sheesha ,drinks ,wedges ,chicken ,mashed potatos.
me fish eprina khuss's gf saint hakim asyron feroz.
& the nighht went by.
Fucking tons of fun & laughter ,fucking digging out
secrets & whatnots .It was one of the best day of my
life .seriously.
we played "i nver had and I ever had" & another game.
Lost track of time ,it was already 4am :(

I wish I could stop time.

& its been quite a while since I got a lil`tipsy.
hehe.

i cant upload the pictures.

I feel like frying a chicken cutlet & eating it w plain rice.

& I feel like getting drunk I don't know why.

I think im too sweet .Ants keep crawling on my arms

& leg.

2009-02-27T00:21:00.002+08:00

appear offline.

2009-02-22T17:16:00.002+08:00

OMG.
biggie is dead .biggie small is dead :(

"biggie small & junior mafia some mark ass bitches."
the biggest rapper.
a legend.
biggie gone :(

2009-02-22T15:35:00.004+08:00

Today marks a special day.
Yesterday was a sucky day.
Tomorrow is a new day still unknown.

Let's switch .I wana switch life.

Workload.
-Anatomy.
50 line drawings. (human fig)
30 drawing w shading.
20 drawing w any mediums.
-Drawing.
50 watercolour sketches =,=
-2D

50-100 sketches (anymedium)

I will freak out anytime .Im not even done with my weekly assignments.
HAW LIKE THAT ?Can mati.
I don't think the 2 weeks holiday can do much help.

Everybody knows ,but nobody really knows.

lost.
lost.
lost.
lost.
lost.
lost.
lost.

bath.

assignment.

think.

sleep.

bath.

school.

2009-02-21T02:32:00.002+08:00

exhausted from being tired/restless/worried/sleepy.

2009-02-20T00:33:00.002+08:00

This picture reminds me of Blink 182 .Don't ask why.

Today was a cb day .Ziella knew my deepest secret which I don't even know tt its a secret .Ziella saw me doing something fucking stupid "leanback & clap" .I screwed over myself a couple of times today .Even at Macdonalds when I suddenly pointed at my phone !What the hell is wrong with me.

Ziella & me skipped 3d .we were supposted to do sculpture .Theme_Infinity .Have no idea on what to do .We went to B6-12 to chill but theres classes everywhere =,=

Been feeling so restless & tired for the past 2 days .Its killing me cause I can't do any of my assignments .I thought im done w anatomy but the lecturer spot all the mistakes & im supposted to retouch on them =,=Digital art can go to hell but im not failing that module .Tmr is the due date for Investigating Art & I really hate doing reviews .Ugh ~Because I'll do it like a primary 6 girl taking oral .cb~

YAY !Ju boughht me "we-no-bikes" hair acceleration !huhu ~watch out long hair ,here I come:)) Im so bloody excited to use it .Everyday for the rest of ME life!

Pictures of blink 182 fans & co.

sleek slack slock.

Hi my name is annana & im the hairstylis't' for today .

2009-02-20T00:32:00.003+08:00

lick lick lick lick u like a lollipop~

so this is the scorpion that I did for Ayu.

The spoiler ;thick hair bands =,=

Peace.

2009-02-20T00:31:00.002+08:00

as u can see ,very happy little kids skipping sculpture class.

2009-02-20T00:30:00.003+08:00

that's little spade & that's a ghost.

Ayu: Kiwak kau nk bunuh aku sia na!

Me: Ha ha ha ,tu baru "mati tanak".

Ziella: ha h ah ah ah a ha *kritt*

2009-02-20T00:28:00.002+08:00

that's nice guy ,Ben .The two others ,u guys shud knw .haha.

This is a nice shot ,So squeezed ,so adorable .but see e distance betwn ayu & me :(

its much better like this .BOOHOO !I shudnt be outofthe frame .Oh that's Thaib!

What ur tryna do assberd.

2009-02-20T00:26:00.002+08:00

ayu cb nyer muke & ziella forevet step cute .NOT-

She wanted to be a gangster (ziella)

Macro don't give u sharp images I have no idea why.

2009-02-20T00:24:00.003+08:00

I dont knw what im trying to take.

This looks like im playing the tabla (indian instrument)&

im so sad to see the length of my hair:(

2009-02-20T00:22:00.002+08:00

1st

2nd

3rd

cb faces.

2009-02-20T00:18:00.002+08:00

This waas supposted to be Ziella's face.

2009-02-20T00:16:00.002+08:00

I ripped off the hook on my pants ,so there I was fixing it using a safety pin.

Both face cb uh~

Kecoh kecoh kasut.

& this is ,our vans of the wall .YAY :))mines the coolest ;D

2009-02-19T00:20:00.006+08:00

The two hottest guys in the planet.

Hi Johnny Knoxville.

Hi Chuck Bass.

Can I make love with both of you.

oh my fucksheeshit.

they have sexy badboy names

They have this bad boy look.

What more can I ask for.

Lets make love.

hoho.

I have a thing abt hot looking bad boys.

AHH~HOT HOT HOT HOT!

Anyway ,I am stopping all the vulgarities

coming out from my mouth.

no more .Only a few.

hehe~

Thank you.

2009-02-17T23:52:00.005+08:00

Babes ,I just realised tt I spelled case ,cast =,=

malu.

Work was today.

Today was work.

Its not easy .Its not easy.

Feelings kept.

Words swallowed.

Seems fine.

But a mess actually.

can't seem to put it in words.

If only there's a way to tell.

If I was a boy.

Thanks awesome people.

all of u ,for making my life

fucking cool.

come on friends,

be strong.

just a little bit more.

(continue)

I just came back .Went down to get my artstuff from

saint ,isha & ashyron .Chill for awhile.

& its already 3.30 /Lucky tmr's class cancelled.

YAHU~.still ,there's the 3o'clock class =,=

sweetnight people.

smile smile smile:))

LAB STORY

2009-02-16T15:16:00.003+08:00

Few minutes before DigitalArt&Design class .Im using a Mac which I hate a lot .I don't even know how to thumbnail the pictures .I only like the flash-like effect.

that new face is shane .He makes weird sound. The common face of course ,Ziella =,= .The star of the pic ,me & that jackass holyshit fish.

& that's my Ed Hardyyyy ....hehehehehehehehehehehe~i like that shitass brand.
but boys ,please don't use it ,very hard to pull it off .most prolly u'll look like an ahbeng
tryin hard to impress a minahbeng.

ha ha hahahaahaa.

Im learning about montage & bloody excited to do the assignment.
talk abt editting using photoshop .It still give me big hulk headache.

Loving technical drawing:))

Thaib spade ayu & me ;we made paper planes & flew it down the
window from level 6 .hit some cars on the streets & Mine was the last to
land so I won but nobody care =,=

I learn how to make 'I love u' using bus tickets..
bus tickets...
bus tickets...
ha ha inside joke w myself. (diam ah zilbagum)

But now...im not even listening to the t`cher.
Im listening to the sickenin` voice of Ziella singin
to Bella Luna ..like 'bella luna ..ah ah.."
omg dhouby ghaut ~she is staring at me while singin`.
She is jinx !JINX !& she is planning to hatetag me:(
Pls rescue me T.I .....

hehe .today is a much better day for me.
I love my planet.
go green.

I didn't have any milk today:(
morning class don't allow food/drink.
can text msges only.

2009-02-16T01:33:00.004+08:00

One of the rare moment the sun created something nice to my room.

In between sad & happy .More to glad than angry .Still as numb .Confused &
weak .Quarter angry.
Just when I thought everythings fine ,it starts to fall apart again.
please make me feel better .Please convince me that this is for real.
please please please .I don't know what to do ,what to feel or whatsoever.
i alway hate handling situations like this.
argh.

I freaked out yest night.There was a damn ugly beetle on my head !Damnshit beetle.
I was combing my hair w my fingers & I felt something hard .I thought it was a piece
of paper or what ,but I saw a beetle & I almost cried.
FUCK YOU beetle .shithead Phobia .I searched for it & used a bottle cap to cover it.
But it got awayy !AHHH ,I was reading a magazine on my bed & heard the beetle flying
off .Cb cb cb cb cb cb cb cb cb .I called my dad.
He rescued me .BABI NYER BEETLE.
I cant believe I touched a beetle!

& mum caught one beetle in the living room which I heard flying & saw landing.
lil bruther caught one while sleeping.
cb I HATE BEETLES SIA!mati uhh all the beetles in the world!

I have my eye on that adidas shoe.

hi my name is annana & its not looking
too good.

2009-02-15T15:58:00.004+08:00

Happy Valentines people .These are the little heart cupcakes tt were supposted to be given
out to couples who came to Starbucks .BUT .I ate almost a quarter of it .Taste nice.

Friday . That's ashyron ,fish & me in the cinema .See ,my flash is very good !Fish hand is shaky.

That's our popcorn & I like asyron's emporio armani specs .We watched The Curious Cast of Benjamin Button from 9 till 12 =,= it sucks !I kinda hate it .Its draggy & although brat pitt is good looking & sexy in some scenes ,i personally don't like it .so I went to the toilet alone just to kill some time .I was fucking bored by it & when I came back ,I kinda like fell down while climbing up the stairs .The parallel lighting on the stairs gave me a headache ,Im like 'where am I going' .& after I fell ,I didn't get up .I sat on the stairs for 10 sec ?Kill some time .ha ha.

Fish: Na ,tadi aku mcm nampak kau .tapi ale ale kau ilang.

Me: Ohh ,ha ha ,aku tejatuh pat tangge.

Fish: HA HA .tu pasal ah .aku pikir imagination aku.

After the movie I wanted to chill but everyone wants to go home .hakim ,hussaint ,his gf went back ,ashyron didn't bring his bike so him & me ,we took night rider & fish brother fetched her .Halfway thru ,ashyron wanted to peepee ,so we get down the $3 busride & took cab after tt =,=

Ayu & Ana's teh tarik .I hate the malay uncle at the kedai mama .He is so noisy & full of

unnecessary comments .Ugh ~and he charged our drink as teh halia because there's the

plastic spoon in it .WE ASKED FOR THE SPOON BECAUSE WE WANTED TO SCOOP UP THE FOAMS DAMMIT & he scold the poor china boy .cb right.

Today is homework day .Im finishing up my anatomy ,redoing my 2d painting & finish up the lettering for technical drawing.

bye babes.

& HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AZIE !I LOVE YOU & I MISS YOU & I CLEARLY MISS MY GUNDUS .Cheyy ,im catching up girl.

I ask my guy

to take a walk.

To take a walk

just a little walk.

Down by the street

up to center point.

Down by the street

up to MacDonalds.

We had fillet & an

apple pie.

we had a sip of lemon lime.

I took his hand

look into his eyes

I ask my guy,

to be my Valentine.

~ncc song :))

2009-02-12T00:15:00.010+08:00

why my first picture alway her sia ?haiyo.

while painting~

my annana & my dragon

"ayu can u stop taking pictures ..can we eat now:("

YAY !can eat :))strawberry struddle...................yummy~

chins & cheeckbones & smiles & laugh & chocolate filled mouth :))

nenek ana & nenek ayu on the house.

you eat....

i eat also~

excited & eating like a 5 yr old.

how excited are we ;its all about the yoguru yogurt mann .no toppings needed.

terikut kin ah !makan sampai air liur melelehh .haHAHAHAHAHAHAH opsy I gotta poopsy.

PICTURE OF THE DAY!~`

comot!

happy nampak happy nampak takde gigi.

1 salmon down 2 to go!

savouring the sushis~

yucky yucky teeth !hehe ,chocolatey .like 90000years nver brush teeth.

me salmon lover :))

OHHHHHHHHHH BESTTT CHOCOLATEYY FUDGYY BUDGYY CREAMY RICH CAKE!

It's time to cut the cake.

Now we're playing with the forks !yay~

hehe .sorry ayu ,she is struggling to get the struddle .I was supposted to feed her.

feeding me the stawberry struddle :))Aww so sweet =,=

cool uh this picture.

Coinccidentally both wearing sleeveless ruffled top ,jackets & sling bag.

the fingers both also distorted =,=

Ayu flipped her board & there u go ~Cool.

Thats what happen today.

Crazy ass day.
We were supposted to paint.

But got chased out halfway cause of

night class.

Instead of going home ,we got naughty

& so hyped up ,we almost died of laughing.

& today is not drinking day.

its eating day!

we have mee rebus & chic porridge,

tons of sushis ,strawberry struddle,

that MONSTERRRR so chocolatey chocolate cake,

the tastest yogurt i've ever had & just a bottle

of mineral water :))

That is watercolour anyway.

its 4am in the morning & I just finished another

painting.

wahh ,like monet already :))

I cant wait for anatomy class!

& watching the 'curious case of blabla' this friday.

2009-02-09T23:35:00.006+08:00

I went to the loo countless time today.

Blame the ovaltine ,mineral water,

HL milk ,chrysanthemum tea & apple

juice.

I love drinking today.

I skipped my DA&D class today.

There's just something when Im with Ayu.

we will be like this 2 little rascals doing stupid

brainless stuffs ,like for example ;skipping class ,taking 30 mins to decide where

to eat & directionless ,taking 12mins to decide what to eat ,having tomyam & laksa

on a HOT day ,sleep while facing each other at lounge ,giving captions to ppl

walking to & fro the foyer & having wild imagination abt bumping into

Migual.

But ,we're still left w some

sensable brain cells to talk

abt hehe hoho.

cb.

I got my phone back :))

& I got myself a bolster & a pillow.

I hate short hair & its time for me

to buy my lenses.

I find today fun.

weehee.

fun .

with mini apple crumbles

& spade finally found an

explanation to my love letter.

& getting the ska song from ziella.

& wiping off my eyeliner & putting it

back on at lounge.

having 3hrs of peaceful sleep.

& seeing kin wearing something nice.
make my day.

Only thing is,

my fcuking hair.

my fucking short hair :(

Hi my name is annana & Im shampooing my

hair as much as I can for the rest of my life
until it reaches my bra strap.

I think Im yearning for peace.

I want peace..

I need peace ...so my mind can think

its best.

Gone wrong

2009-02-08T23:47:00.005+08:00

Valentines day is coming & im dateless.
Besides ,i'll be working on that day so whats the
point ?I don't know .Maybe because I've been wishing to have
a date for Valentines Day for almost 3 yrs.
So for this Valentine ,I don't even want a date.
I only want a cookie.

Im sad .I don't know .When I finally have the time & no reason to not be happy
about with life ,u alway have to take it all away from me.
take away my smiles ,my energy.
What's wrong ?what's wrong with me having my own life & us being
friends ?What's wrong.
I wish I could turn back time .Turn back time to where
I don't even have any boyfriends .it would have been easier.
It must have been easier.
When I tried to be nice ,I tried to be friendly ,u get carried away.
what am I supposted to do .I've tried explaining to u countless times
making u understand every single word tt came out from my mouth ,its pointless.
cause it'll be back to square one.
u're so good at killing me softly.
& im so good at hurting u.
Stop it .Because I don't want to hurt u anymore.
Let me go .Don't make me do something
tt I nver want to do to u.

Im fcuking furious .Fcuking fuck fuck fuck shit dammit
gahhhhhhhhhh suck balls asshole shitheaddddddddddddddddddddd.
I dont even feel like talking to anyone,
They get on my nervessssssssssssssss .AAAAAAHH shit ,im so full
of angst right now i feel like crying .I feel like crying to a stranger who 'll
try his/her best to console me .Yes ,I need a stranger to listen to me than
give me a hug.
Listen to what I have to say & make no judgement .Oh dear stranger.
where are u.
i need u.
oh dear stranger.
im so angry.

fcuknights fuckheads.
I hate boys.

2009-02-06T02:10:00.002+08:00

tiring day at school .from 9am till 10pm.

Laugh most of the time.

My first ride on a skateboard in 2009.

hehe .Finished up on my A2 painting.

Not awesome enuf.

Kebab !We didnt get our

dear kebab rolls .maybe today:))

I was at the busstop when I saw

my dad's car from quite a distance.

Eagle eyesight lor.

& I cross the road walk bristly.

finally get to them :))We have supper

opposite my sch .Cheese prata!

It's nice to know tt they care.

Today is friday =,=I like/love fridays especially

this one cus its my payday .ha ha ha.

Hussaint & hakim plan on chillaxing today .at 8 ?I don't know yet yet .& i also don't know if im

down for this one.

& I have no idea if im planning to stayback in sch to complete some

of my assignments .Maybe I shall stay in sch till 9 & then meet them?

Cheyy .Life have been gooood for me .2009 aint as bad as I thought .ha ha ha~

but its only feb =,=talking abt feb ,its gonna be someone's birthday .22nd.

No ,no more feelings .I promise to myself .I shud get going w life right .wee!

gotta sleep.

2009-02-05T00:14:00.002+08:00

im chewing on tomyam maggie.
chewing ?its just chewwy .springy.
& mum's leftover big gulp.

I already prepared my brand new isle &
a rough sketch of my garden.
gonna paint it soon.
I think im not gona sleep.
So I can sleep inside the lounge tmr.
While my friends paint :))

Back then ,art lesson.
I used to do my art or homwrk
at home &
then feel scared when I wanted to
show it the next lesson.
Because I alway have this worried
thoughts tt my friends will
think tt my dad help me do my
artpiece.
Now I don't care.

2009-02-04T20:46:00.001+08:00

I was almost alone for today & yest .My friends didn't turn up to sch .sigh~
today's investigating art was forever and ever boring dammit shit .She gave us 3 sheets of papers
to read w xtra small fonts ,frontback =,=Arguing abt art & craft without a good conclusion .Ass.

Monday was Arab St day .Manager had a starbucks bigsplash meeting @ some coolshit sheesha place .Air-conditioned.
bigger than my quite-big ugly room .Pillows all over .Cups of ice chocolates .6 sheeshas .wee~
Monday was my first ride on a cooldamn black DRZ too.
cus saint picked me up after sch to sheesha place.
so happy .Supper was at Zamzam ,right beside the mosque .I didn't wana go home .So we went on a little riding.
vespas & a drz .w a sexy red lancer car .WOOHOO ~its sexy uh .damn sexy .4guys & 2 girls .Marina Barrage w char
kuey & tau huey .Nice ~

If a spark can get me till 120km/h then a drz can do so much better .So I complain to saint tt he was slow.
and got a 140km/h ride for like 2mins .It felt so-out-of-the-world !As if the world was on forward button.
As if nothing else matter .Everything was a fast blur .I was smiling & holding tight .Shrieking w excitement.
Besides ,wearing a 95% tinted visor adds more thrill to know tt u don't really know where
ur going .Hussaint promise me a 200km/h next time :))

I guess I must have love speed .Love fast wheels .But doubt I'll get a license sooner.
Back by 1 ,greeted by 2 pieces of KFC .& the boring thing is tt I'll only have a few hrs to sleep
before my 9 o`clock class.

I miss my long hair .Its so depressing to know tt I will have to wait for at least a yr
for another long hair .I swear to Ayu im not cutting anymore xcept for my fringe.
My hair would have been as long as Ayu's cus we have the same hair length when we first
become friends.
I have this according-to-mood thing for my fringe .sucks lor.

It felt kinda lonely when one of my friends didn't turn up to sch.
Not tt I can't survive it felt incomplete .The vibe wasn't there .Pls come
to sch korg .I have no hp so its harder for me.

Great I have an A2 tree painting to do & not looking forward too.
Arghh .n I hate Digital Art&Design .no ,I hate photoshop!!!!!

Goal:
Collect more shoes.
Collect more slippers.
Buy $42 ripcurl wallet.
Buy Hp.
Cupboard.

The power of a fan.

2009-02-02T01:17:00.000+08:00

goodnight world....

2009-02-01T01:51:00.000+08:00

This is my friend kin & ziella .we're at the museum's toilet.
is my armpit too smelly for u to smile ?then again ,i think its just u kin.
ha ha :))

This is sch & its fcuking crazy & i like it that way.

keeps me rollin` babe !& love my sch friends.

bunch of motivated artistic bernini's asses.

part bernini tak paya pun bole.
& i miss being ard ayuuu.

2009-02-01T00:37:00.000+08:00

Things can't just work out the way we want to ,can it?

I thought I was over being restless .But something else came up & all
I can do now is wonder whats gonna happen next .Life really is themost challenging game ever .Why .Just when I thought evrythgs fine.
Just when I thought.

It will work out eventually but then its ,eventually .Not now ,or maybe later or the next next year or whatever .I suck at this game .This life game .Its fcuking complicated & I cant
figure anythg out.

Im worried sick.AHH!shit.

Today was normal ,tired & sticky.

Hey ,using my sane brain today,
Im gonna say this .That I will never look back .At my past with hakim .I never will look at him & feel the same way again .I guess I really suck at getting over u .suckiest feeling ever .im trying very hard & I think i can do this .Im getting over u .My life is not alway abt u .I mourned I cried I missed I dreamt I loved I cared I tried so much for u & thght u might appreciate it someday but u nver did .For as long as I've waited ,for as long as 3yrs ,u nver did .I alway thought there was a chance ,eventually .but I can't wait for eventually to eventually arrive .all u did was played me .over n over again .& all I did was to forgive u over n over again .Im beginning to see the clear msg b ,tt we might have this strong chemistry togther but im not the one ,never have never will .U took a part of me but im done baby .Im finally done .I'll slip away from u & nver come back.

because ,because of u ,my life's nver been the same.

I just have one word to let it all out.
cheebai.

I think for the first time in a long while ,I can sleep peacefully tonight.
yay .three cheers for me.

2009-01-31T02:32:00.001+08:00

my brother is still sleeping ....His lappy finally settled down on hibernate mode...
So both is sleeping w each other .Awwww ~*ok u can slap my face now*

Thanks to Ju for prison break S3E141516 =D
ha ha ha .Mat shuffle~

2009-01-31T01:07:00.000+08:00

What a lovely hair above !:((.

Today in school I get a love letter from Spade .I think it is my 1st ever love letter .& the content is very .....greeeen .splashes of green paint & his thumbprints .Written 'To :Anananana ,love SPADE ' .He said something philosophical abt it .I ask 'so what does the thumbprints mean ?'
& the answer made Ziella & me laugh out so loud .It meant smthg like 'no matter haw far i go ,i'll still be climbing up to get u' .Coming from spade ,it was fcuking funny.
& so I gave him back a love letter .ha ha ha ~A painting of circles & lines & heartshapes .still fcuking funny cus When I was painting the circles ,I thght of boobs all the way & the phrase 'circle circle dot dot~' .Ziella was the messenger .But whn I came back from washing my brushes ,its still there & ziella said he wanted me to give it to him .& in the end he made this sentence abt our love letters .'Don't throw until we graduate ...(cannot hear)' that part cannot hear was because Ziella & me were already laughing like kerbaus .made my day?

Other than tt ,Im still very very disturb by my painting in class today .I get like a lot of positive comments & all but its like ,no its not .Just like when kin said her wings didn't look like wings but it actually do & it have like very nice toning but like she think its damn ugly .Something like that .very disturbing indeed .kin ,cheer up ok :))Not all photographers can draw potraits & paint like u & Ju :))& u are the 1st person who did a potrait of me that actually looks like me!

harun is fast asleep on the cold floor .His lappy is watching him sleeping .DAmmit !I've been wanting to watch the latest episode of GossipGirl II but my internet sucks !!shitt !ass !uggh.

hi fellow friends ,sleep tight!

2009-01-30T01:39:00.000+08:00

"I kinda have a crazy history .I grew up with my hippy father in a van"
-american idol contestant.

Cool man~

I screwed myself today .I reached home early at 6 with a mission to eat then do my A2 painting .I was so geared ,so excited to finally paint .Lay 2 mins on my bed & before I knew it ,its already 1am :((Now I can't do my painting !its already 2 & I can't possibly stay up the whole night .I think im too tired .Not me ,my body .My body's exhausted .But not me !ha ha .I only have 2 tins of milo & pieces of chocolates from kin&ziella from 9 till 5+.Its 2 tins cus there's an offer .2 for $2.20 =,= ha ha .now I won't be having a rolled up a2 paper in my hand when I enter class tmr .not tt happy ok.

gtg people.

2009-01-28T22:07:00.000+08:00

Zoo ;last year ;long hair:(

yay yay !yay yay !dad allow me to paint my room this coming sunday !yay yay~yahu =D

me: aba !bile nk paint bilik anaaaaaaaaaaa~

aba: mcmane nk paint kau mane ade free time.

me: This sundayyy bole!!
aba: kau sunday plan bangun pagi pukul brape?

me: pukul twelve!

aba: twelve bukan pagi tau =,=

me: oh 11.59 -,=

aba: ok .lpas tu kau relek2 belum mandi..

me: 1hr je.

aba: kau nk start paint kul brape.

me: kul three.

aba: abe abes paint?

me: kul 8 =,-

YAY !I can paint yahuu ~bahuu ~ =,=kental punye conversation actually .nyeahhs .hmmm

actually I have some assignments to do .The drawing of my potraits tt I dread so much .I

wonder how my face will look like this time round .& I had ceramic class just now & I made myself a fire extinguisher bank (like piggy bank) .hehe ~& it looks more like a dustbin after I stick the convex part on top .ha ha ~& it have my name on it :))I like it very very much~

Talking about ceramic ,I am planning to redo my sculpture for 3d :))Wait & see ,I will put in much effort since Im considering majoring in sculpture or ceramic or western painting :))

unlike ziella .ha ha.

Kental or what ,Im at NipponPaint website right now =,=choosing the colour for my 4 walls.

I found something funny ."Sushi is the most death metalish food there is. Eating raw bodies of living things served on top of rice" .ha ha he make sushi sounds so gross .I like sushi very much ok.

Anywaaaaaayyyyy ,my class went to National Museum today .& we went to this exhibition *like terrrr* .& there's this video installation .IT WAS DAMMIT SO FUNNY I WAS LAUGHING MY BEBERD BEBERD .Its just a simple video of a big oval yellow balloon w a human inside dancing to the music by Funky Boys 'shame on you' .HA HA HA HA HA !I laugh everytime the balloon started to dance vigorously ,front back ,left right .AHaHahAHAHAHAHA !I was done the first round & went bck to see e other artworks .The security there applaud for me .He said I did a good job dancing like the balloon .HA HAHA ~The 2nd time I watch the yellow balloon dance ,the security guard was like taking his hp out & say he will take a video of me dancing again .I was like "& then tt will be a piece of art !ha ha".It was a very funny yellow balloon & I miss the yellow balloon man .ha h ah a ha ha h ah aha~//

2009-01-27T23:49:00.000+08:00

I learn something from a taxi driver when I wanted to pay the fare by nets .He said tt on new yr ,chinese like to get cash rather than credits .It'll bring them good luck .well 'like I know' at tt time .& I was cashless =,=Sorry uncle :))

I had bbq pit with my paternal side .It was ay ok .Not that fun because I don't like how sarcastic & judgemental they can get -,-really so I took a pillow & slept thru the night .much better :))

Im tired of being judge my own family members (extended) .They nver seem to stop .I feeel so restricted .I feel so uncomfortable .I guess thats boyan .Finally I say ,Javanese are much better people .Im proud to be a boyan but I don't possess characteristics of a boyan.

Yeah that's about it .Im feeling good .Everything is good .I mean ,better .Im not panicking nor slacking in my assignments .Friends have alway been good :))Work is forever friggin fun .Love life is numb .I think it will take me another yr or two to say love to the opposite sex & its cool .Remember ,the astrology says .Taurus is strongly attracted to the opposite sex .Yay !I shall try & continue to be like this.

2009-01-25T22:21:00.000+08:00

Today feels much much better .Yesterday ,I was so para-paranoid.

Im so glad that I've completed most of my assignments .YAY !& I love the skeleton of ju tt I did .Its so so so cool .Im done with Drawing .I already did 2 painting of the trees & completed the 3 drawings of the trees .Left with A2 which I think im going to do today .Im left with 4 potrait expression of myself & I hate it so much because I know & everyone who knows art know that u can nver draw the potrait of urself !Like u knw haw u look & u tend to draw what u think & know but not what u see which in the end won't look like u .I've tried so many times but i'll either look like an alien or someone stupid =,= & then I already did my photoshop .Left with tech drawing .& oh !water colour :(I filed all my papers & make everything organised .See ,since I have short hair ,Im someone new .better .more organised .not lazy .alway clean up .But I still do love avril &50cent .& T.I will forever be my sugar daddy .& Rain is still the man of my dream .*ok 5mins for me*

& I just camwhored .myself .Well ,I went to my friend's jemputan .I look nice today .I think .So
I took pictures of myself .With my short hair .Lucky I don't look like those fashionista =,= I feel more rock .ha ha .What can I say ,like father like daughter .My dad have always been a rocker die-hard fan .scorpion ,black sabbath sweet charity all those .& my brother is a rocker too .Rock
never die .Not in my family that is .ha ha .Except tt Im the only one who knows how u play the guitar .& then brother learn .Bapak rockers tapi taktau maen instrument .ha ha my manager will alway laugh at that sentence :))

I feel like talking a lot today .I don't know why .Yay & Im proud of myself .because Im still left w a sum of money from my paycheck :))It already 25th ok .Usually my pay will be used up in less than a week .Things have been ay ok for me .I have this little turquoise book which was my birthday present from minakimzuhri .& I've been writing a lot in it .& i feel better after every entry.

School have been very interesting .I like almost all the new stuffs tt they teachh me .hehe unlike last sem .wee wee wee .im loving it .& I'll be bestfriend w this indian uncle because I've been buying milo kotak every morning when I pass by his shop walking to school .k byebye.

2009-01-18T23:54:00.001+08:00